The Russians are coming !! Shoot, shoot them away !!

[erik]

I had a dream, but I don't know anymore in what year it was, all that I know that it was after August 6th 2001, because that was the day I got the keys of my house in Rotterdam.
It must have been before October 2nd 2002 as well, cause I clearly remember that, after I came back from India, I gave my mother a pot containning photo negatives of my APS pictures, because of the dream. Or was it in India that I had this dream between October 2nd 2002 and Januari 23rd 2003 ? I don't remember.

The dream went like this :

"I was on a field and a bunch of Russian criminals appeared in front of me in the distance, they were out to hurt me and I had a machinegun. I used the machine gun to shoot them away.
Later I was in my house and there was a fire in the fireplace, my mother was very worried and came by, I was on the third floor looking out of the window and my mother was downstairs on the street, I yelled at her : "Mom, it's okay, nothing will happen !!" The fire went out.
She went away, comforted"

Now, somewhere in 2005 I met a girl, Chantie, and she became my girlfriend for three months. In that time I met a few other girls, who were the neighbors of Chantie. I met them alltogether outside on the street, opposite my street.
It was summer 2005.

But I didn't know in what kind of trouble I was entering myself.

The girls, Tatjana and Isha, were addicted to alcohol and beer and I was depressed because of having nothing to do and a psychosis I had that was slowly leaving me, I was recovering but I was depressed, I was smoking ganja everyday to get stoned to forget things.
As I slowly mixed with them more, I remember they had so many roaches in their house that I didn't wanna be there, but I went there every day a few minutes or so. I didn't drink beer.
As I said, I had nothing to do.
One night I was there in their house and Tatjana was there and a girl, they were smoking crack.
Tatjana invited me to smoke a bit with them, just to try it, and I took one inhalation, I felt nothing and that was it. I left not too long later.
But one day I came back when they were smoking it again and again they invited me to take an inhalation, I said that I didn't feel anything of it, so I did it, to be polite.
But then......such an explosion of happiness was erupting in my head and I was the most happy man in the world......for a few seconds. Then it faded away but was leaving me with one desire, I wanted more of this !!
So I got some money, I had saved 7000 euros, and came back, they had to call the dealer.

To make it short, I became addicted and my family became extreme worried but also angry about me, about what I was doing, I was spending al my money and had "friends" who were smoking crack as well, they were Muslims, called Feiki, Jack and Appie, we were hanging out together many times, all the year 2005 until early summer 2006. We were smoking crack everywhere, at night in the parc, in houses of dealers and junkies, you name it, although we were not junkies, cause we didn't need it really, we used it as a party drug.

Now, I had another dream on the same subject on Februari 3rd or 4th 2003, the day after I jumped from an overway, which went like this :

"I was in the house of my brother, in where he lived at the time, at the Pleinweg, and was looking down to the streets. There I saw a few young trendy clothed Maroccans looking up to me, smilingly and laughing at me, the were walking to the other side of the street.
I heard : "Now they have everything"

I spent all my money on my new "friends" and on the crack that I was buying, I have to say, most of the time out of my own free will, because I like to share things.
I had two main dealers, Mo and Jack and I bought so much crack from them.
So this dream was foretelling those events : "Now they have everything" meant that I gave away all my money to them.

My mother was very worried about all this, I had to loan money many times to pay for my rent and so on, it were miserable times.
Because of the fire in the fireplace I gave my mother all the negativs from my APS films, because I really was thinking a fire would destroy my house and my pictures from India would be lost.

The Russians were the Muslims I was hanging out with, Tatjana was a Muslim girl too.

So two foretelling dreams from a looooong time ago.

PS. I am not targetting Muslims with this post, it just happened that these drug addicts, like me at the time, it just happened that they were Muslims and that Russians in my dreams is symbolic for Muslims, so please don't get me wrong, okay ?!!