I love this man - help

[bonnie46]

I met this man in 1997 at church and I was married at the time. When he touched my hand electricity ran through it and I turned and said to my mother. "If I ever get a divorce that is the man I want" Well in 2000 my husband left me for another woman. So this man and I dated alittle bit in
2000 then he walked away from me. I found out that he was seeing a 25 year old girl (at that time I was 38yrs old) I was so hurt that I started crying
and all at once I felt a presence with me like and Angel put their arms around me. My mind was like a broken record repeating the thought "I have to go
to church?" So I did go to church on a Wed. night - not my habit to do that-
and a bowl with peoples names were in it and I was told to pick a card and whoever name is on it you have to pray for them. I pulled his name and
the following Wed I pulled his parents name to pray for. So after that I just
went on with my life. So in 2003 we dated alittle again and he walked away
from me again. So on Jan 10 2004 I was in bed unable to sleep because
I knew he was with someone else - I was tossing and turning -and all at
once this overwhelming peace rolled through my body and the words that
came clearly in my mind were "It doesn't matter you get him for a life time"
I rolled over and finally went to sleep. So on Mar 25 2004 I went to bed
and said a prayer God if me and this man are to be together please let
me know in my dreams to night -please give me a month and a year this
is going to happen. (My dream) He walks up to me and says"I will
not be racing on Sept 8th can we get together then?" I have had other
dreams about this man - one was I was going to my son's graduation and
he was looking at me and says to me "I Love You" My son will graduate
from college in 2 years. So therefore once again I just went on with my life.
I have since heard he is living with some one. There have been a few other
thing - just to much to post. I really do not understand any of this.
Thank you

[yard]

it sounds like you need a warm man.. and this man who left you two times does not sound warm enough. i hope you find someone who will treat you well.

[windbell]

You can find your happiness one day
this man doesn't deserve you I think