I lost my sleep paralysis virginity and it HURT

[Chowcow]

Let me first describe myself...

I'm not superstitous. I do not follow any sort of religion, although I SOMEWHAT believe in a GOD or a common ancestor. I however, do spend time researching different religions and persepectives (when i'm procasinating on my studies) and have lately done more than usual. Lately, I haven't really been "happy" , or as happy as I usually am. That's probably due to a factor of things that I'm not going to get into. Anyways, I never really have nightmares, the only ones i remember (with no detail whatsoever) are the ones I had when I was a child. Again, I have no recollection of what they were about, but I know I've woken up crying when I was a kid. So last night ... I had my first occurence of sleep paralysis. This is what happend:

I woke up (or so i think i did, although im almost 90% sure I was actually awake) to find a woman sleeping in my bed. She was, I believe caucasian, had HUGE eyes bulging out of her sockets, completely blood shot and had one arm over my chest. She was middle-aged and was wearing a sort of dress-robe (the things you see characters wear in a horror movie in pyschiatric hospitals) Anyways, she was on her side (I dont know if she was dead or not) but wasa looking right into my eyes. At this point, our eyes locked. I was staring at her, I guess my brain wasn't online as I wasnt scared at all (This was the wierd part). So then I'm kinda waking up more and more, although my eyes have always been open. I roll onto my back from my side and am now looking at the ceiling. I come to the realization that some random womans sleeping on my bed with the scariest eyes and one arm across my chest holding me down. Her arm is weightless, but at the same time, It felt like I was strapped down by something. I was completley immobile. Struggling to breath I called out "help" but it came out as a whisper. I kept trying to call for help, each time I said help, it got louder and louder until I finally was screaming at the top of my lungs. I'm going to stop here for a moment. This is completely out of character for me. I never sleep-talk. At this point, I know i was awake because my brain was telling me i wasa in danger, which I'm assuming because that explaisn why I would be screaming for help.
So after I scream at the top of my lungs, I become fully awake. I lay there on my bed, not wanting to look to my side because of the thought of that woman sacres the sheeeeet out of me. I hear someone moving outside of my door, I assuem its my brother. My dog scratches at the door. I bolt ouut of bed and let her in. She comes and greets me, jumps on my bed as if she knew what i was going through and kept me company for the rest of the night.

It took me an hour to fall back asleep, at this point, my body blew up in sweat.

I fell back asleep, this time piling up the blankets on the side of the bed the woman appeared. Thinking that she'd probably wouldnt fit as comfortably anymore. So after maybe 30 mins of sleeping (Dunno how long it takes to hit REM sleep) again, I get it. This time, my arm under the stack of sheets is completely immobile. I wake up, this time half asleep murmuring.. " ahhhh". I continually say "ahhh" increasingly louder. I become fully awake again, and realize that im saying "ahhh" louder and louder. Wierd thing is that, It was as if my body was possessed (both events) and that I had to wake up and turn off this "Auto-pilot". My dog noticed this and kinda rubbed her nose on my face, which wasa the stimulus that woke me up. So, I'm pretty shaken. I woke up today, didnt want to look into a mirror, didnt like the thought that I couldnt see everythign at once. IE I kept my back to a wall so I could see everything as I was getting ready for school. It's been a few hours and I'm in my lab and still kinda tingly about it.

Well, I'm posting this to 1) vent and 2) have a group analysis... Psychoanalysis and whatever. Its interesting to hear what people have to say about it and what they think. So go ahead and say waht you want. I'm just looking to read about similar/explanations, scientific or spiritual, I like knowing both.

So fire in the hole!

[Chowcow]

Let me add that in the first event with the random woman, I wasn't initially terrified of her because I felt that I knew her. It was only later that I realized it was terrifying that there was a random woman sleeping next to me.

She appeared to me so vivid that I'd be able to spot her if I saw her in real life. She felt so life like. She wasn't anyone I knew , or had similar features. Jsut that I know I'd be able to pick her out of a crowd in an instant.

And no, this isn't a crazy ex-girlfriend nightmarish "i hate you" dream....
or could it be?

:P

[Wolfjk]

Hi,
Interesting post! I will give you a short explanation!

I haven't really been "happy" , or as happy as I usually am.

I take this to mean that you are under some stress, short of money, or problems with personal relationships. This might cause uneasy sleep.

a woman sleeping in my bed. She was, I believe caucasian, had HUGE eyes bulging out of her sockets, completely blood shot and had one arm over my chest

The above quote indicates that you were lying on your back with one arm (your own!) over your chest and your head looking sideways.

At this point, our eyes locked. I was staring at her, I guess my brain wasn't online as I wasnt scared at all (This was the wierd part). So then I'm kinda waking up more and more, although my eyes have always been open. I roll onto my back from my side and am now looking at the ceiling.

It iwas her "medusa" gaze that mad you turn your head away! towards loking at the ceeiling!
Now you're in a classical sleep paralysyis position! Lying on your back with arm across your chest, gasping for air! Many bad dreams happen in this position.
I was first shown how to deal with this sleeping position in 1954! In a common dormitory a man was sleeping it the position you describe, snorring and struggling to breath. Another man went up to him, moved his arms off his chest, and turned him over! All without waking him up! Peace returned.

I lay there on my bed, not wanting to look to my side because of the thought of that woman sacres the sheeeeet out of me

It takes quite a while to fully awake from sleep paralysis!

I fell back asleep, this time piling up the blankets on the side of the bed the woman appeared.

Out of the frying pan, into the fire! Here you probably got tangled up in your sheets and bedclothes! That caused your discomfort!
I will not do a psycho-analysis, but the middle aged woman your subconscious created to frighten you indicates an unpleasant experience, or fear of contact!
Cheers Wolfjk