left behind

[n.hawk]

I would like to start by saying thank you for allowing me to be a part of this forum.i am almost at wits end trying to figure out these dreams.The first one i was at my parents home under the carport.My grandpa was there and several others including my daddy (whom is also a pentacostal minister).It was dark out and everyone was talking casually but quietly.It was as though we were waitng on something.All of a sudden the wind started blowing something fierce and the wind began to pull my daddy across the front yard.it was like he was being sucked by this wind.His right arm was raised in the air and he was so excited and he would bring his arm down then up again and he was saying"Hes fixin to seat us,praise God hes fixin to seat us at the throne.my fear was horrorfying.i began running after him and i grabbed him around the bottom of his legs.he was stilled beiing pulled and still praising the Lord.i was holding on to him around his ankles for dear life screaming daddy please dont leave me behin , please dont leave me behind.He put his arm at my shoulders and he was like he was when the spirit of God would get a hold of him in church,weeping but happy,and he kept saying just pray honey just pray.i some how saw a digital alarm clock under the carport that said 4:44.For a very long time i would wake up at that exact same time every morning 4:44a.m.

My next dream i was walking down a dirt road alone on a beautiful sunny day.There were pasture fences on both sides of this dirt road with sheep grazing on both sides.everything was so peaceful.Then all of a sudden the clouds began to roll and move very very fast as though someone had fast forwarded them in a movie.Then they parted and Jesus was standing in the middle of these clouds.Even though there was no one else around i could see people rising in the sky. i became frantic and saw the clouds were starting to close up.i started running and screaming to not be left behind but in my dream i never catch up and i never see whether or not i malke it.

in between all these i would dream of tornados nite after nite.we would always be inside and i was always praying asking God to protect us and my children but every window u looked out of there were more and more tornados everywhere.then while draping myself over my kids trying to protect them the tornado picked up the house and we would gracefully move thru the air but it was terrifying and i would keep praying for God to protect us. then the house would sit down without hurting anyone.
Then recently i dreamed i was in a house i lived in as a child and there was parents and others there and suddenly there were there flies that if therre was a crack in anything these flies would get thru and bite u and the bites were deadly.somewhere along the way these men that appeared to be in the military put people in houses together.we were in houses with some people we knew and some we didnt.but no-one was allowed to leave.i dont know whee my family or parents were.i knew the house i was in was close to my grandmothers and i wanted out to find her.(in real life she has been dead for a long time).i heard our door open to the house we lived in so i got up where i could try to look out to see what was going on because we were not allowed to see outside.there was a military man standing there taking someone out.he was wearing those gas type masks and the outside was like a dusky dark,almost completely dark.there were military people marching up and down the street military tanks being drivin and finally somehow i end up on a yellow school bus with alot of other people and aircraft was flying all in the air.still no-one would tell us anything.i had my suspicions but didnt know.i didnt even know where they were taking us.but it was like we were in a bad traffic jam at a standstill.all of a sudden this black military man with no mask came running by our bus and he was screaming "hes here,he has come back"i knew then my suspicions were rite this had something to do with Gods return. I was terrified all over again and fell to my knees with my hands raised in the air crying and praying begging God not to leave me behind.then i wake up!!

this has been going on for several years now.i dont mean to be so long winded but i thought if u knew everything u might be able to help.i havent been in church like i should be for a long time even though my daddy is still a minister just down the road i had quit going.i am 39 years old and a few years ago i had a 16 month old baby boy that was with my now x-husband at our horse farm of about 150 quarter horses and he wasnt watching him and a horse kicked my baby and killed him instantly.he's a police officer that use to be very abusive to me.i want u to know these things to see if any of it relates.but since then its been a while since i was in church.thank u for any help and God bless you!!

[Wolfjk]

Hi,
Your problem is your religion.

he was like he was when the spirit of God would get a hold of him in church,weeping but happy

The above quote indicates that your father is a dedicated religious minister and brought you up fearing.
Religion is an idea, you can take it or leave it. At your age you should be able to mke up your mind. You fear your father more then you fear god. That is your problem.
Be good to your fellow human beings and forget about the hell-fire stuff! Stand up for yourself.
Regarding your son, what happened can't be undone and stop blaming yourself.
Cheers Wolfjk

[Sable]

First dream: Maybe you are not were you want to be spiritually. Are you feeling that you have done something that will prevent you from going to Heaven and you will be left behind the day of Judgment? If so, we do not know who will go to Heaven when the time comes, so just worship the Lord, believe in Him, follow Him and the Bible and just live for Him.
4:44 IS A SYMBOLIC REPRESENTATION OF A POSITIVE EXPRESSION OF JOY. 4:44 MEANS MAKING THE EFFORT TO CONSCIOUSLY CHOOSE THE POSITIVE SIDE OF LIFE'S CIRCUMSTANCES
Second dream: I think you subconscious is trying to tell you something here. In your dreams you are being left behind each time people are being brought to heave. (first dream) Do you pray/worship the Lord in you waking life? If not do not worry about the people around you and what they think and just worship. your subconscious may be telling you you should pray more. If there is anything you have done that you feel is wrong you should set things right with God and repent.
I hope this maybe helps.... God Bless You and I hope you receive the answer to your questions.

[marywilkinson45]

I believe God is trying to get your attention through these dreams. Talk and pray to him. BLESSINGS TO YOU.

[n.hawk]

Thank you all Wolfjk,Sable and Marywilkerson45!!!! all of what you said makes really good sense.My daddy has always brought us up very strictly and very God fearing.Ive never felt like my dad has ever loved me though.i know that may sound crazy him being the God fearing christian he is.All my life i have never felt good enuf,NOT TO BE HIS DAUGHTER NEVER GOOD ENUF TO MAKE IT INTO HEAVEN.These dreams have been going on for about 18 years and in between all these dreams there are dreams of demons chasing me,snakes everywhere you turn and in my dreams i can never get away from them and my dreams are so vivid its like they are real.alot of times when i wake up i am crying uncontrolaby and feel like i cant breathe.and the fear when i wake up is horrible.like recently i dreamed my daddy died and in my dreams i thought well this would never bother me like it should,but when they told me in my dream that he was dead i had that same gut wrenching feeling i had when my son died.it was that sick unexplainable pain in the pit of ur stomach,and i still felt it when i woke up.then a couple weeks after that i dreamed we were at my daughters house with my parents there and others and it was like a special occassion everyone laughing talking then my 3 year old granddaughter walks in from outside and and says my name but she was crying and when i looked her arms were stretched out to the side limply and she was kinda slumped over.she said "mim" my back hurts.i start screaming trying to get everyone to shutup so i can hear her and get to her.and i grab her up and her body goes limp in my arms.im crying begging her to tell me what happened but no response.im running out the front door to the font yard where they all were playing and i looked and i could see the tire marks on the road that swerved to the front yard where the kids were playing.i fell to the ground with that same sick gut feeling like i had every other time.i could see it was a hit and run and she apparently died in my arms.i was crying begging God not to let her die.and i woke up with that sick feeling and crying uncontrollably again.
i have always been the type that if i got a sick feeling that something was gonna happen to someone then something would happen to someone and that scares me to death. so the way my dreams have always been so vivid and real scares me.these started long b4 my baby died but i stopped going to church after he passed on.i feel like God sometimes is trying to tell me either get myself together and get out of this depression and start serving him again or im gonna be left behind when he returns.im the type of person thats too good to people and so gullable that i believe anything anyone says to me so people tend to take advantage.even though ive always been very attractive and a good person i still feel not good enuf.maybe i need a shrink intead of dream advise but i feel these dreams are happening and getting worse for some reason.thanks again for ur responses.God bless you all

[Sable]

I know how you feel. Not feeling good enough and no matter what you do you feel like you will not live up to the standards people think you should. I am also gullible and people like to play jokes on me because of this esp my brother..... but you know what here something that helps me feel better about who I am. Your not perfect, I am not perfect and everyone else in the world is not perfect. We are all messed up, so people need to stop acting better than everyone else and putting them down, because each and everyone of us have something that we are better at doing than anyone else and that is being ourselves. You are good enough all you have to do is open your eyes and realize that. It does not matter what other people think of you. All that matters is what you think of yourself, because you have to live every waking moment of your life with yourself and it is what you think that gets you depressed.
cheer up and do not listen to other people unless they have something nice to say!

[n.hawk]

Thanks Sable.you are so very kind-hearted. u know u are rite,the thoughts u have are what lets depression take over.im 39 and a grandma(way too young)haha but wouldnt trade it for anything.shes my world.and when ur my age and feel as though u have accomplished nothing its sad.but you have made me stop and think!!i have accomplished something i have beautiful healthy children that need me and a granddaughter that loves her mim(which is what she calls me).you know it doesnt matter if my daddy never loves me i have my kids and grandchild to love.but i use to wanna be like my girlfriends in school they were always daddys girls.and they spoke of their daddies as the greatest thing in the world and im still terrified to talk to mine today. maybe wolfjk was rite ive been more afraid of my father than i was of God.maybe i need to learn to trust god all over again and rededicate my life to him and put him first b4 anything!!thank you all so very much.God bless you

[Sable]

God bless you! I hope all goes well in life for you.