The bus feeling

[Aether99]

Thats what I call it, Ive had it for a long time. Basically just as im going to sleep or waking up, I go from peaceful completly normal feeling pulse rate, to bolting up out of bed as if I just walked around a street corner at night, and around the corner is a bus honking its horn, lights on, 2 feet away from me about to hit me doing 55 mph.

That type of "Im gonna die" startlement.

It jars me so much I never remember any of my dreams for that night. But I am also the type of person whose most dreams are nightmares, horrid ones where the world will pretty much rearrange itself just to kill you if you think your gonna get away, and I awake usually perfectly calm from those nightmares (though I made a post with some recent ones that were bad enough to actually force me awake and afraid)

Its often a very high level of startlement too, the equivalent of watching a axe get swung at your head, when its just about to cut in your startled, but if you could slow time for an instant and feel the blade work its way into your neck..that level of startled, so high that you feel like your gonna die of panic, but it immediatly subsides, after 10 seconds I feel almost as though nothing happened so its not a lingering feeling, no sense of evil, or dread.

Edit: posting this in the nightmares section since it seems most relevant in the sense of bad feelings /shrug, ill move it to a more relevant place if anyone can tell me where to post it