Horrible first time lucid experience.

[Goobatron]

Hello,
This will be an introduction of myself and lil story to go with it. Im 17 years old and i live in Australia. I enjoy rollerblading, comedy and having just a general good time. I suspect i will be spending a bit of time on this forum, because just today i heard about something called "Lucid Dreaming".

I kind of just stumbled accross the idea today when looking up about hallucenations, i found it interesting that eyes could see and do things that didnt really happen. Anyway, i was very skeptical of this lucid dream thing until tonight. But i decided to try it out with an open mind, i looked up a guide on how to do it, and followed some steps.

I wrote down a few of the steps, and i stared at my hands and said to myself for maybe 5 minutes "While im dreaming, i will see my hands and realize im in a dream". Id also read something else about it, it was about mirrors, and the advice given was not to look into them.

Now i fell asleep, And i know i was normal dreaming at first, but in my normal, uncontrolled dream, i looked into a mirror. And a connection was made instantly from some text i read "You may appear blurry in the mirror", and i was. And i thought "Oh wow, this is a dream", and the second i ended that sentence i experienced something so scary it wouldnt have its full impact reading it, but i will type it anyway.

prior to looking into the mirror, i remember talking to a man (Stewart) that i live with, and entering the bathroom. When i looked in the mirror and noticed i was dreaming, instantly i became lucid.... But just as quickly It was almost as if my brain said "WTF??? You shouldnt know that" and i lost complete control. i couldnt control the fact i was having a seizure (in the dream, not in RL), and everything was blurry, not just me in the mirror. I fell to the ground, and im trying to gasp for Stewarts aid, but i couldnt, i was unable to speak, i was unable to think, just sheer terror came over me, complete helplessness... I was trapped by this unknown power that was saying with its actions (such as blurring my vision and forcing me to convulse) "NO, this ISNT going to happen" Then i woke up.

It was so incredibly vivid, that it has nearly brought be to tears, and im a teenage boy... not trying to be sterotypical, but i dont cry very often from being scared of something, but this was truly horrible.

That was about an hour before i came here. I went downstairs and spoke to Stewart about it, cause i had told him i was going to try this lucid dreaming thing, then i went back to my room, played some music and looked it up and found this forum.

I had no idea ANYTHING would happen the first night trying. And now im worried about going to sleep again. Im afraid that while this memory is so fresh in my mind, i may not be able to stop dreaming this again, and entering that state again.

[Goobatron]

I Apoligize, i seem to have posted this in the wrong topic, although i would call it a lucid nightmare.