Reacurring Nightmare...while kinda of Lucid

[Yumechan]

Hey guys. Its my first post here. And i feel I really need some help because it really bothers me makes me think i need a shrink.

So I usually lucid dream. In this case of the nightmare, i have no control over it but I'm aware so I remember it quite vividly after i wake up.

It happens usually for short time when i've fallen asleep or when I nap?

Basically what happens is that something (anything in a dream may occur) and then it would result in someone raping me or molesting me in some way. And after awhile this anonymous person becomes my father?

I get really freaked out and i wake up. Sometimes i stay dreaming and I'm just like stop?!! why are you doing this? And it doesn't and I have to wake up.

This has been a reoccurring dream for a few years. Its never exactly the same but the results or the nightmare is. And it actually didn't start happening until i think when my best friend told me she was raped by her grandfather when she was young. I'm not sure if they has something to do with it but i think it does.

And its makes me wonder if i was raped when i was young? if i was i obviously don't remember. But im pretty sure i wasn't I just can't seem to understand why i keep having these nightmares with my dad. It really disturbs me. thanks any comments would help.

[bright_dreamer]

HI,
SOme abuse survivors do not remember things that happened to them while they were young. I do not know if this is your case or not...only you'd be able to figure that out. How strongly do you feel about it? If it keeps bothering you, finding a psychotherapist may help (basically, a therapist, who can help you talk things out. Not someone to give you drugs. If you go that route, trust your instincts, and don't stick witht he 1st person you go to if you don't feel right about it.)

Another idea I have is....was your father controlling when you were younger? Did he not allow you to do things that other kids were doing at that age? Were your ideas or opinions oppressed in your family? Did you feelings matter to others?
I hope this helps,
Peace to you