accepted fate, childhood lost, the demons inside

[muse]

This is a very vivid nightmare I had some time ago, but it is very interesting and I think I know what it meant.

Here's a little background on the real life setting of the dream:
In the basement of my mother's house, my sister had her bedroom. It was all open to the rest of the basement, where all our junk was stored, and also the washer and dryer. At times we would all get high and play with an Ouija board, which had been my mother's when she was a teenager in the '70's. One night, we apparently discovered that there had been a family whose house was on the same hill by the lake back in the 1700's. There were two twin girls, maybe 8 years old, with blonde hair. Their brother, whom they only referred to as "Rat", apparently molested and killed both of them, and threw them in the lake. We all felt the presence of these girls, and my sister occasionally felt the presence of this Rat fellow while she was in bed at night. My mother even felt a tug on her robe at times when she was doing laundry. We even asked for a "sign" that they were truly there that night, and all of us saw the cord to the light twisting slowly. Creepy stuff.

On to my dream:
I was in the basement talking with one of the twin girls. I don't remember exactly what was said, but suddenly she was running up the stairs, telling me to hurry or else the demon would come to take my soul, or something incredibly terrifying of the sort. She ran up the stairs, but I was too late. She had some sort of red chalk or pen, and she made a jagged pointed line which no soul could cross, good or bad. I made it to the top just as the line was completed. She was even giggling, I think, as if it were some sort of game. As she closed the door, darkness enveloped the stairs. Cue the impending sense of doom. With nowhere else to turn, I went back down the stairs, and as my eyes adjusted, a massive form took shape. It had grey leathery skin, was very muscular, and had the legs and horns of a rather large goat, I suppose. It did not speak, but rather thought into me. It said I had nowhere else to go, that I must accept this fate as my own. Overtaken by this undeniable logic, I had to accept the fact that this demon would now be a part of me, wherever I would go, for all eternity. I found solace in the acceptance of my fate.

Several years later:
Looking back on that dream, I think what it meant was that my childhood was no longer with me. Why one of these girls took form in my dream is a mystery to me. However, this was at a time in my life when I was experimenting with sex, drugs, and listened to a lot of black/death metal. I had little to no faith in the human race (lol and I still seem to have trouble with that one...). I had to accept that my childhood had left me, and I now know that the demon represented my vigorous rebellion and rejection of the social norm, however dumb it had been.

[Clear]

Your dream is very clear the stairs is the path to god, a little girl in a dream means goodness, this is the goodness of god trying to get you up the stairs. The failure to go up means you will have to go down to the devil and face the consequences. As you made clear this was a point in your life, in which you had no faith, so it makes sense. Always rely on god for help, he will never leave you.

[muse]

Originally Posted by Clear

Your dream is very clear the stairs is the path to god, a little girl in a dream means goodness, this is the goodness of god trying to get you up the stairs. The failure to go up means you will have to go down to the devil and face the consequences. As you made clear this was a point in your life, in which you had no faith, so it makes sense. Always rely on god for help, he will never leave you.

In the human race...
I do not believe in the devil, nor do I believe in your god. I did not come here for people to preach religious bullsh*t to me. Thank you.

[Belle #2]

about the real life events that occured in the basement. i don't think playing with a ouiji board helped at all to the situation. you may not believe in god or satan that is your choice. i will not "preach" but tell you that i have had experiences where i know both of these spiritual beings to be true. fyi they definatley believe in you. and that board only makes you open yourself up to those things. nothing good comes from them, and you are right about the large form, it will be apart of you because you allowed it to when you played on the ouiji board. as you don't believe in these things you obviously wont care but i beleive you have or have been attached to a spirit at some stage as you let it in.