afraid to sleep

[cursedwithdreamgifts]

hi
been having an unusal last 3 weeks in the dream dept
and i amalreadyoverloaded with that .........
i have been in sleep labs and with the medical field, the therapy field, spiritualists, and with a family full of gifted women, and with churches

i believe i was blessed and cursed with dreams

i do NOT go thru the stages of the sleeping patterns
i close eyes i go to REM i wake up
(i know the drs said i wa a bit of a rare case-great i wanted to be a labrat when i grew up) lol
in my records there are photos of the bruises, teeth and claw marks, handprints, etc etc etc in places that are totally humanly impossible to give to yourself)

couldnt sleep last
when i finally fell asleep it was at about 6 15 am this morning

i was on my couch in between states and then i felt the arms start to slide in around me . a male i opened my eyes looking around
he wouldnt let me go
if i decide to even move it became a stronegr grip
icoild feel his fingers grasping each other around me.

i usually always dream about the same man since like forever
this man was a differnt man
i even know his name is robert. (no i do not know a robert)
now this is the thing i was heartaching in love with this man
and he with me
but i knew it wasnt his physical body
i kept looking at the front door waiting for him to come walking in cuz i knw whe he did this entity would let me go.

when i get grabbed itis usually when i am returning
there women there also. not nice
on the other side of the couch.
i couldnt see them i could hear them and knew they were there.

this guy robert he started to change like mentally
icould feel it
like i knew he wanted to hurt me
but i just felt if i stayed calm it woudl be ok(i havel earned when the grabbers have me its best not tot fight it i hate being pulled into the floor into the ground thru or under my bed).
next the room starts to change somehow.
it is differnt and yet i have been here alot.
something is happening cuz across where my tv is are soem guys sitting on stairs.
they r prisoners? but not in jail. or gang members? troubled. they r going to be caught i know this.

all of a sudden he starts to push his fingers into my back. i mean like he is phyically pushing them in cuz he wants my kidneys???
it hurts so bad.
i just keep waiting for him to come walking in the door.
but then i realized he isnt coming
soemthgn is wrong with him and yet im with him
there si this overwhelming urge to be with him like my heart is aching to be with him
and its like i start to relax and he does

and i just keep feeling the pressure of his arms around me and his finger or somehtign he is pushing into my left back kidney. it keeps getting more and more intensely painful
i mean im crying in pain and again my eyes are open for real and close for real so i am tryig to just wake up cuz i know i can just wake up and wont be anymore pain right??

i rememebr i am thinking i know why im not waking up
he has drugged me im not asleep this is real oh my God
he was never gone he was there all along and he is getting
ready to do soem real damage to me.

i remember thinking i dont even know when he drugged me
i dont nwo how i couldv been so stupid to have let this happen
this was it
iat first i htought he was taking a kdney out or somethign
but then i realized he wasnt taking it out he was putting soemthign in there!!!!

it hurt so much
and i wanted it to end so i started prayiing
i wanted forgiveness if i was dying here and now then i better doit
then i when i said jesus
silence
my eyes were open
i sat up instantly
like i had slept all night
it was 15 mins.
i just started crying my eyes out. i felt so heartbroken that something had chnaged this beautiful manin to something evil

i ran to the mirror to see what wonderful marlks i get to have today
due to all of the ones i have carried
there is a diagonal red streakl across the backof kidney area
and im telling u i feel liek someone has kicked me in the side
it feels sore and bruised like
vry achy

I WAS IN NO PAIN PRIOR THE 15 MINS EARLIER B4 THIS DREAM

ITS BEEN 3 HOURS + AND I AM STILL IN MAJOR PAIN HERE.

my dreams are strting ot take off in weird directions
lately
whether more detailed or stronger.....

i knwo this was lucid but this time i coudnt seem to change anything or stop anything
so i find it a bit hard to wrap my head around this one.
i went from a normal know i was dreamign to thinking it was actually hahppening cuz i coudnt change anything like i ususally can.

ehat do u think??

omg i was just reading my post
icant even believe this
i DO know a robert

his 1st name was robert but he always went by his 2nd name
bruce his whole life
we were going to get married
he died 3 years ago.

possible connecton??
he was my hero
except when he drank then he put his hands on me!!
so i left him
wonder if the connection with jesus is he wants me to pray for him?
or maybe it was something evil and jesus killed it
and im still in pain with my back .........
sorry such a pain with all the info

[Soñadora]

I am by no means an expert, but could it be that the marks that you have are not cause by paranormal forces but a medical condition and that the dreams are induced by the pain you feel?
Could it be possible that you have some kind of autoimmune response that causes you those painful marks? There are some pretty freaky diseases out there, and many of them we don't even know about.
Maybe your brain chose Robert to hurt you because that is what he used to do when he drank. Maybe the answer to your "What could have turn him into this monster?" is simply his addiction. You loved him and he loved you, but you say that when he drank he'd hurt you. Maybe this is an expression of that past experience.

I am sure Jesus did not kill him, and I am sure it is always good to pray for troubled souls. I would think your boyfriend was one of those.

[Apox]

honestly, that sounds paranormal.

[JeanClark]

yes it is not healthy not to get enough sleep. i use to be like that though. i would stay up until i couldnt hold my eyes open anymore because i was afraid i would if i went to sleep. i still cant slep at night though but it has nothing to do with that. talk to a cousler and let them know how you feel or your family and see if they can help you out some. i also noticed if you have a pet or a good friend that makes you feel safe that will help you out because you feel secured. good luck with this and i know you will sooner or later get over this feeling.

[Wisdom and Rubies]

Originally Posted by cursedwithdreamgifts

hi
been having an unusal last 3 weeks in the dream dept
and i amalreadyoverloaded with that .........
i have been in sleep labs and with the medical field, the therapy field, spiritualists, and with a family full of gifted women, and with churches

i believe i was blessed and cursed with dreams

i do NOT go thru the stages of the sleeping patterns
i close eyes i go to REM i wake up
(i know the drs said i wa a bit of a rare case-great i wanted to be a labrat when i grew up) lol
in my records there are photos of the bruises, teeth and claw marks, handprints, etc etc etc in places that are totally humanly impossible to give to yourself)

couldnt sleep last
when i finally fell asleep it was at about 6 15 am this morning

i was on my couch in between states and then i felt the arms start to slide in around me . a male i opened my eyes looking around
he wouldnt let me go
if i decide to even move it became a stronegr grip
icoild feel his fingers grasping each other around me.

i usually always dream about the same man since like forever
this man was a differnt man
i even know his name is robert. (no i do not know a robert)
now this is the thing i was heartaching in love with this man
and he with me
but i knew it wasnt his physical body
i kept looking at the front door waiting for him to come walking in cuz i knw whe he did this entity would let me go.

when i get grabbed itis usually when i am returning
there women there also. not nice
on the other side of the couch.
i couldnt see them i could hear them and knew they were there.

this guy robert he started to change like mentally
icould feel it
like i knew he wanted to hurt me
but i just felt if i stayed calm it woudl be ok(i havel earned when the grabbers have me its best not tot fight it i hate being pulled into the floor into the ground thru or under my bed).
next the room starts to change somehow.
it is differnt and yet i have been here alot.
something is happening cuz across where my tv is are soem guys sitting on stairs.
they r prisoners? but not in jail. or gang members? troubled. they r going to be caught i know this.

all of a sudden he starts to push his fingers into my back. i mean like he is phyically pushing them in cuz he wants my kidneys???
it hurts so bad.
i just keep waiting for him to come walking in the door.
but then i realized he isnt coming
soemthgn is wrong with him and yet im with him
there si this overwhelming urge to be with him like my heart is aching to be with him
and its like i start to relax and he does

and i just keep feeling the pressure of his arms around me and his finger or somehtign he is pushing into my left back kidney. it keeps getting more and more intensely painful
i mean im crying in pain and again my eyes are open for real and close for real so i am tryig to just wake up cuz i know i can just wake up and wont be anymore pain right??

i rememebr i am thinking i know why im not waking up
he has drugged me im not asleep this is real oh my God
he was never gone he was there all along and he is getting
ready to do soem real damage to me.

i remember thinking i dont even know when he drugged me
i dont nwo how i couldv been so stupid to have let this happen
this was it
iat first i htought he was taking a kdney out or somethign
but then i realized he wasnt taking it out he was putting soemthign in there!!!!

it hurt so much
and i wanted it to end so i started prayiing
i wanted forgiveness if i was dying here and now then i better doit
then i when i said jesus
silence
my eyes were open
i sat up instantly
like i had slept all night
it was 15 mins.
i just started crying my eyes out. i felt so heartbroken that something had chnaged this beautiful manin to something evil

i ran to the mirror to see what wonderful marlks i get to have today
due to all of the ones i have carried
there is a diagonal red streakl across the backof kidney area
and im telling u i feel liek someone has kicked me in the side
it feels sore and bruised like
vry achy

I WAS IN NO PAIN PRIOR THE 15 MINS EARLIER B4 THIS DREAM

ITS BEEN 3 HOURS + AND I AM STILL IN MAJOR PAIN HERE.

my dreams are strting ot take off in weird directions
lately
whether more detailed or stronger.....

i knwo this was lucid but this time i coudnt seem to change anything or stop anything
so i find it a bit hard to wrap my head around this one.
i went from a normal know i was dreamign to thinking it was actually hahppening cuz i coudnt change anything like i ususally can.

ehat do u think??

omg i was just reading my post
icant even believe this
i DO know a robert

his 1st name was robert but he always went by his 2nd name
bruce his whole life
we were going to get married
he died 3 years ago.

possible connecton??
he was my hero
except when he drank then he put his hands on me!!
so i left him
wonder if the connection with jesus is he wants me to pray for him?
or maybe it was something evil and jesus killed it
and im still in pain with my back .........
sorry such a pain with all the info

Can you sleep with the lights on? If you can, why don't you set up a video camera with the lens trained on you? Nothing may come of it, but perhaps something.
What Soñadora said sounds plausible.

If you go to church, why don't you talk to your minister about it, and ask him to pray over you?

[Mother of 4]

It is very odd that you remember your dream in such detail. Do you always remember your dreams this vividly? If not and this dream is an exception then maybe this dream or person holds a significant place and does truly mean something. I am no expert but possibly the fact that Robert is holding you down in the dream may represent your own feelings of his death still holding you back from moving on. The pain can represent just that, your pain you still hold on to. It may seem so real because in your subconcious his death and life are still a significant part in your life. Although I do not rule this out as possibly being paranormal I feel you should examine other options first. Seeking some professional help or just some outside support I feel is needed. Losing sleep can cause significant health problems. I hope this somehow helps. I would also reccomend praying it does wonders for the soul. Good luck and take care!

[adams]

No , you didn't freak me out!I know what your going through!night terrors (nightmares) is actually a medical conditions you need to see your doctor about them! He or She could set you up with a sleep study or sleep clinic that can help you . I had them really bad I would do crazy stuff and not remember. I actually broke my arm one time in my sleep because I would jump up and run or sit and scream fight. Please go see your DR! You are not alone! I wish you best of luck!!!

[Hawk]

Hi,

I just want to say that you are not cursed and Jesus loves you and wants to help you. Give your life and nightmares to Jesus and he will sort it out for you no problem!