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[breadNbologna]

i am an ex addict
of drugs at least.



anyways i have dreams of having sex with some of the most desirable women ive ever seen but it goes on and i never really get off.
in that same respect i have dreams of having or obtaining illicit drugs, and you guessed it. i never fix up.

these dreams are like nightmares

long and frustrating.

i no longer have a drug problem but it kills me.

am i just crazy?? is there a method of having happy non paranoid dreams (another problem dream i have.. getting arrested and going to prison.)

[Imogen]

First off, it takes a lot of strength to beat an addiction, so good for you. Your dreams seem to be saying that the highs you got in life were drug induced (obviously) and that you may be feeling at the moment that even as you see urself as an ex addict you may subconciously feel that you are just depriving yourself, there is a sense that you havent worked through the addictions and that part of you has to get to a place of understanding where it can die and a new you is born where you are able to understand the highs in life without the drugs. And also to understand that fears can be handled in a different way as well. A lot of times people give up and find themselves in this no mans land (a dry addict) its really great that you got there dont get me wrong but you just need to go a bit further to learn to live again in a new mindset.
Take care of urself.