Even though I can't recall it, it just keeps coming back.

[bttws]

Hello, I just joined up and I hope maybe someone could shine some enlightenment onto my situation. Apologies for not helping anyone else first, but I was looking for a forum to post a pretty compelling, if not bothersome situation.

All day the past two days, I have been bothered by a dream I had....even though I cannot remember it at all. I get glimpses in my mind, but when I do, I am unable to grasp it and remember what it was. Despite this, everytime I do, say, think or hear something that (apparently) happened in the dream or reminded me of it, I feel uncomfortable. It wasn't a nightmare. When I woke up after having it, I recalled enough to think "What a strange dream" and then went about the business of waking/getting up.

The best I can put all this weird stuff into words is to say that something I don't even remember keeps interrupting my conscious mind. I don't know how something you can't even remember continues to bother you. But it is doing just that.

All I can really recall is forrest, caves or basements, driving and a host of people I don't know. But, I think it would be an error to focus on these things for some kind of a final interpretation, because I know that those things were merely pieces of a much more elaborate and complex dream. And, I feel like my brain is doing the mental equivalent of having a word on the tip of your tongue. It's there, you know it is, the word you are looking for has a "feeling" and if you could just reach out and grab it, you could stop forcing yourself to remember it. Well, replace "word" with "dream" and that is what is happening to me right now.

My husband seems to think it must have been a very bad dream or a nightmare, but I just don't think it was. But then again, I have never had a dream give me such a mental strain.


I asked my family and friends if they have ever experienced this. No one has. Have any of you? Did you eventually remember the dream and then did it stop?

And, way to go if you read that whole thing. I appreciate it. I know that may have been one confusing ramble, but I await any replies or analysis at all. Thank you

[messenger]

Welcome! I'm sure you will have many who will be willing to give you a thought or two and helpful at that.

[bttws]

I hope so too

I've started to remember more about the people in it. Again, no one I know. My dreams tend to be on the theatrical side and are often in 3rd person. This one was no different, from what I kind of recall.

[Jennings]

I am guessing here: I think your dream was probably meaningful but typically you conscious mind failed to record it so it is not able to be remembered but traces of it (at least) still remain at the unconscious level. If your dream was not meaningful I doubt if it would remain, as you described it, 'on the tip of your tongue' and the irritation of this inability to recall is appreciated. In a manner of speaking it has left behind an emotional imprint which, during your normal daily activities, different but normal facets trigger not so much the memory but its emotional shadow which you can feel but the accompanying script has been deleted. I am almost feeling the frustration myself. My guess is that it may on some occasion be regurgitated or you may encounter one of those 'deja vu' situations without knowing the reason for it. If the dream was indeed meaningful, as it seems to have been, then my next guess is, that it was probably connected to your current life or your immediate future otherwise why would it be meaningful and why would it leave this apparent emotional imprint? One would need to know more detail of the different facets that triggered the feelings experienced to be able to possibly assist further.

[Jennings]

If I can add further; you say that your dreams are of the theatrical type and viewed in the third person. This would indicate the element of objectivity and that of being an observer; I wonder if your professional life taps into those traits, like being in the role of a counsellor?

If you were a counsellor then this might explain something about the nature of your experiences. Counsellors tend to learn more about themselves from analysing the behavioural aspects of their clients and accompany this experience is a growth factor in maturation the experiences of which are not entirely dissimilar to those of yours except, that they tend to get the whole picture rather than the sensation.

[bttws]

Thank you very much for your input Jennings. I am not a counselor, though I am the go-to person when someone in the family or certain friends need to talk. It's also a natural interest of mine. I do visit creators . com as one part of my daily routine. (they have a huge advice column section) Professionally, I am a Master Control Operator at a tv station and I illustrate a couple web comics as a hobby. I have only ever had one work related dream and that was when a transmitter went down during a game and a few days later I had a dream about that very thing.

I did remember a few more tidbits. The first part of the dream was in a woods like setting, but with city streets and sidewalks. Later on, I was somehow involved in an accidental death, not caused by me, but on my "watch". This part is where the basement or cave area was.

I wish I could have made some sense of the triggers. But, it was just little feelings popping in and out of my head all day, during two very typical and routine days. I am happy to report that I no longer am feeling so compelled to remember, but still, a couple times a day I will find myself trying to recall what seems to be long gone.

And I have dreamed since and have already forgotten those, but I don't really care. I just wish I knew what was so important in the one I forgot.

And to further explain a typical dream for me, most of my dreams seem to have plots or at least varied scenarios. I also hardly ever dream about people I know. I have had so few dreams about my husband, when he has so many with me, I feel kind of bad. The only family I tend to see are my deceased grandparents. Most of the time, the dream is fairly normal or I am just visiting them in their house. Sometimes I will realize they are deceased and then realize I am in a dream. Nothing negative or scary.

Sometimes I will even have dreams where I am not even in the "cast". I had a dream about a very loyal horse just last week where I was in the first part of the dream but not in the rest. I remember witnessing the rest, but it was really just like a camera shot. And before the dream ended "I" arrived. But again, I was watching it all, not experiencing it from within my body.

It's too bad that when I feel deja vu coming on, I probably won't associate it with that dream.

[messenger]

Feeling like the fly on the wall watching ... yet seeing it all clearly.

[Jennings]

You say that you have only had one work related dream yet your dreams are in script form and seen from the viewpoint of a tv control operator which relates to both your vocation and your avocation. Regular dreaming of your grandparents would likely indicate an affection and closeness you had with them and probably that you still miss them. Dreaming when the transmitter went down indicates that the occasion impacted on you but only you would know why. Dreaming of plots and scenarios would be due to your thought processes that have been trained in this direction. Not dreaming of people whom you know is possibly also job related and connected to characterisation. The fact that you seldom dream of your husband would indicate a comfortable relationship but one where your work probably occupies most of your daily thoughts; it would tend too to indicate a reasonably fulfilled and liberated woman. You can rest assured that when your husband dreams of you regularly he is hardly likely to be having other women in his sights. Your dreams sound as if they may be on the lucid side where it is difficult to distinguish between dream and reality. Just in the passing, a loyal horse could indicate a good second in command or partner; someone who could be relied upon and your triggers made me think of changes of sceneries. I am not being psychic; just guessing which is better than doing a crossword. Time is currently against me so I will attempt to complete this post tomorrow if possible.

[Gypsy55]

Hi bttws
In order to replay this dream you could ask for clarification from your guides, as you go to sleep think of something within the dream and ask that it be clarfied, and that more information be given to you. Since you are having bits and pieces come back, it could be that there is some information in this dream that you need to know, and your guides are prodding you to remember. Another way to try and recall what went on is to meditate in a quiet comfortable chair. Try for a time where you can sit for about an hour undisturbed, playing soft quiet music and lightening some candles will help with the meditation.

[bttws]

Thank you for the suggestion Gypsy. I already tried meditating on it, which is how I came up with some more images. But, just a few more parts was all that I got. However, the things that I finally were able to retrieve are quite clear and I expect I will remember them easily from now on. Just wish (and hope) I could fill in the rest of the story.


I look forward to more from you Jennings. I do think that the 3rd person dreams must be a pretty significant part of my personality (or brain) because I have had them since I was very young. That's not to say I don't have 1st person dreams at all. Most dreams are a combination of the two, I think.

Oh, and this:

Dreaming when the transmitter went down indicates that the occasion impacted on you but only you would know why.

Is an easy one. No matter what happens there, with any equipment, satellites or programming; I have recourse and am able to fix a problem immediately or quickly. I always have a backup plan and I do well under pressure. But, the transmitters are another story. There are two of them, each on a mountaintop. One is 30 minutes away. The other is 50 minutes. Other than being able to turn it on or off with a remote control computer at my station, if one goes down (power surge, high winds, ice or snow will do it) then I am powerless to fix it, and I have to call an engineer (I feel bad when I have to wake them up in the middle of the night) to go out there. Not having options makes me uncomfortable. So, when we lost one during a pre-season football game, lets just say I was a tad stressed