i dream a little dream for you

[starbeast]

hello all! this is my first post. i have been having the same TYPE of dream for quite some time now and the stress of having these dreams is getting to me, so i thought i would put it out there and let you all give me your ideas of what it might mean.
so... here's the story. i will give you a bit of background and insight into my past so you can get an idea as well...

the following is REAL LIFE
i grew up in a house in america with my mum. she fell very ill when i was nine and had to start taking care of her. my sisters are a great deal older than me, so i never really had them home with me.
i have no father in the picture. my mum was married to another man after she divorced my father and dated several men after she divorced that guy. all of the men that were in her life were abusive to me in several ways. mentally, physically, sexually, etc.
when i was sixteen my mum suddenly fell VERY ill and went into hospital. i was immediately put into a treatment facility by my [loving] sisters. i lived there for a year and a half, in which time, my sisters got rid of every single thing in the house (without me) and sold it. i only saw it twice after i went into treatment.
i went into foster care and was there for a year and moved to england to be with my [now] husband. i have been here four years.

NOW that we are up to date, even if it is in a nutshell, i shall tell you about my dreams

ever since i was put into the treatment facility i have had regular dreams. i always remember them. they always are up-to-date with regard to the people in them, things i own or the places i go (i.e. things bought, pets i have, friends of mine, people i have seen, sainsbury's, etc) but EVERYTHING ALWAYS happens in my old house. i never ever dream about any other place. all my friends come visit, it is in my old house. i come home after work to my old house, i go to the shop, it is across from my old house. i NEVER dream about any of the other FOUR places i have lived since being there.

what is up with that yo?

any ideas?

[starbeast]

bump, bump. someone please have a look at this and interpret it.

[BlueAngel]

I don't know, star, my life was very similar to yours, when I was young, in the fact that I had lots of "fathers" who did terrible things to me, but then so did my Mom, but she wasn't physically ill, her problems were all mental. I'm sorry for you, and I feel sad for your losses, and I get angry thinking of your selfish "sisters". I too used to have dreams of always being in childhood houses. My guess is because you were really robbed of your opportunity to have a normal childhood, and maybe you are feeling cheated, and you wish that you could go back to better times, at least when you had your Mum. No matter how bad our childhood is, there's always a desire to go back, when times get tough. Your life now may be better, and it sounds like it is, but still you feel like there's something, some part of you left back there, and if you could just go back, somehow you could do it different, and it would all turn out different, and better.I hope this gives you some ideas, at least. Good luck, and God bless you.

[starbeast]

awwww.... thanks a lot love. i do appreciate the reply.