reccuring horrible dream

[rawjen]

I have this dream a few times now, this time it was a little different then the last, I don't really remember too much about the other ones. There are always the same three men in them, two of them are hillbillies that wear overalls without shirts and the other is a cop. One of the hillbillies, is covered in red markings that look sort of like rashes.

The dream I had last night started out with me sitting behind two men, at the time I didn't know who they were, in one of those train things that miners use for hauling coal. I happen to look down at my legs, and noticed that I had huge rash like markings on the top of my thighs. That's when It came to me that the two men in front of me were the men that had chased me around trying to rape on several occasions. AS I was figuring this out the man with the rash like markings turned around, looked at me and smiled one of the evil smiles I had ever seen in my life.

I began to run as fast as I could to a trailer park that was across the street screaming for help and for someone to let me in. No one would do anything, but say " go find a cop" I heard this over and over again, until finally a lady had pointed one out to me. I ran to him, and franticlly told him what was going on and he told me to get in his car and he would take me somewhere safe. WE drove for only a short while, just long enough so as we were far enough from the trailer park that nobody would notice we were there.

At this point he opened the gate that seperates the front of the cop car from the back, climbed through and closed it when he got to the back. Then he told me things that he was going to do to me. I tried to get out of the car, but they were locked from the outside. he raped me, I tried to fight, I fought so hard, but nothing seemed to stop him. during this, which seemed like it was never going to end, I woke up.

I have been raped in the past, whether that helps anybody figure out what this means or not, I don't know. But it seems like it would.

[Jennings]

In your final sentence you answered your own dream. The occasion was manifestly a traumatic one and the rape may have been committed by coloured men (remembering that I do not know your colour). It was accompanied by physical force or violence. The question of trust also arises as it seems that you may have been misled or let down in some way. The culprits may be known criminals. It would appear that not only did you experience not getting help or assistance but that your complaint was possibly mishandled by the police. Your dream and its recurrence is the sign of shock caused by the trauma of having your personal space invaded by aliens (I am not inferring here soley to the carnal act as we all have personal space). The difficulty you are encountering is coming to terms with this act of violence to you which is revealing itself in your dreaming. Time is the great healer and we all take different lenghts of time to heal emotional wounds. While this act is something you will never forget, eventually you should be able to leave it in the past and get on with life but you will possibly be that bit less confident and less self-assured.