Intepretation, please?

[SweetbriarPoet]

I always have the craziest of dreams.....This one isn't even the most in-depth one I've ever encountered. I would love help with it please...

(By the way, I am 19 and attending university. I am not married, have no children, no boyfriend...all the marriages in the dream aren't real....)
I have been known to have the strangest dreams on the planet: In fact, the one I'm submitting isn't my strangest, or my most in-depth. But it seems to be the one I have the most problems interpreting...

In the beginning of the dream, I'm walking with a purpose. Somehow I know I'm a spy on a mission, like I'm carrying some secret knowledge. I start walking through a bar that is all tinted this deep, mahognay color. A man asks if I know a place where he can watch baseball (he is obviously hitting on me). I point to one of the barstools and tell him that in a pointedly disinterested voice that pretty much anywhere in the town he can watch baseball on television. Then another man with a beer comes up and asks if he can seat me somewhere (again, obviously hitting on me). But I say no in this stern voice and point to the left (in a gesture, meaning, that's where I'm heading.)

Where I am pointing there is a small, wooden staircase that leads down into a building that ends up becoming a chapel. There are chairs lined up in front of the altar (the rug is this deep crimson color), but only one or two people are sitting in the chairs. They ignore me. I walk past the church and into the back rooms where there are spas and changing rooms with big, brown curtains. I passed a young girl in a purple bathing suit. I went through the dressing rooms to try and find a vacant one (I'm pulling open all the curtains, but don't seem frustrated.) The purpose was some undercover work.

A group of people tell me that al the curtains are occupied. I walk out of the 'spa rooms' back through the chapel where I obstinately get in between the people and the altar. (Almost like I am so powerful, I can come between the people and their religion?) I continue outside where the second part of the dream starts:

My husband whose name is Ivan and who is also part of my 'revolutionary' work for which I am spying, is walking in front of me. My little girl (whose hand I am holding) is behind me. A group of Christians (who I become tense around, meaning they are against the revolution) start singing a song and for good measure and to blend in (so as not go get caught), my family starts singing too. When they get to the point in the song that says "Christ is king" my little girl, excited by the singing shouts, "Iztof is the only king!" (At this point, it doesn't seem strange that this name just pops up. This is the leader of the revolution.) For some reason, I realize that we are all carrying satchels with revoltionary books in them.

The roup behind us gasps and I slap a hand over my little girl's mouth (as she has just given us away.) I tell her to pretend she doesn't know her father because for some reason I feel that will leave him open to save us. She starts to cry and I black out to the third part of the dream.

Everything is tinted gray and brown. Like dust. My daughter is lying in my arms, sleeping and we are on the side of a street crouched behind a tombstone-hiding. A black man sits next to me-obviously in hiding too, and so does a family friend (who I somehow know used to be a love interest of mine and who I also know operates this part of the revolution by helping fugitives and spies escape.) He is looking at the two of us sympathetically. He's got black hair and is Russian. For some reason, I feel very tenderly towards him. The black man says, "Didn't you realize this is Stone Street?" (He is implying that Stone Street is full of hardcore Christians, and why would I come here to give myself away?) I point to my sleeping daughter to explain that I didn't give us away. Someone I can't see from behind the tombstone calls a name and the black man stands up.

I know, for some reason, that it is his time to die.

The family friend looks at him questioningly and asks, "Which group of desperates do you want us to kill someone for?" And, somehow, I know this is a tribute that is given to each dying man. The man points towards me and my daughter, and I feel a sense of pride and thankfulness. The family friend says to me, "We could have a car accident." Which I take to mean we could kill the Christians who had been signing and had heard my daughter's slip. I shake my head and say, "It won't work." He replies, "Maybe not for weeks, but it buys you a day."

My arms start to go numb from holding the girl, and the end of the dream comes.

Important things I remember:

In the dream, I believe in God and am a Christian, but I still believe the Christians are in the wrong. (For some reason I remember thinking of them as being 'bought' or 'bribed' into Christianity.)

Throughout the dream, I feel very powerful and stern. I act strong.

All the men in my dream (except for the black older man) act as if they were either flirting with me or had a very strong affection towards me.

I first scream for my family to run before I tell my daughter to pretend Ivan is not her father, but for some reason this part of the dream is (ignored?).

All the people in my dream are fictionalized, none of them are modeled after anyone I know in real life. Does this have any significance?

When i awoke from the dream, I felt important. Like I had a purpose.

[DrmDoc]

Hello SweetbriarPoet,

At your request, I have reviewed your dream. Beginning as a spy with a purposeful gait describes a focused effort to reach, discover, or expose a truth. The men you dismiss at the bar describe the kind of men you find unappealing and a distraction to your serious social goals. The steps leading to a chapel describes the focus of your investigation: Religious structure. Going to the backroom of the chapel describes an effort to investigate a truth beyond superficial practices. Your secret knowledge is the awareness within you that you are trying to bring forth. Your Russian family describes the truth you may hold. Ivan describes the caliber of man who appeals to your sense of purpose and commitment. Your daughter describes the awareness emerging from you--on matters of religion--that you are nurturing. Russians, to conservative Americans, are unfairly viewed as godless people. However, in your dream they suggests the importance of socialistic ideas; i.e., the importance of a life philosophy that uplifts the community rather than the individual.

Overall, your dream appears to suggest your evolving religious (life philosophy) awareness and understanding. Your spiritual philosophy is changing as you mature and the hypocrisy you have witness is helping that change. You are evolving a more humanistic perspective of what religious practices should involve. I hope this helps.

DrmDoc

[SweetbriarPoet]

Thank you so much....I felt as if I were seriously living a different life in this dream, and it became very important to me. Your interpretation makes sense in regards to other dreams I have been having, and things I have been discovering.

Thank you again...so much.

[Varzandeh]

Sorry , I couldn't match your dream with the symbols I know.
Waiting for your next dreams.Even very short, truthful dreams are usually short.
Good luck.

[SweetbriarPoet]

Thank you anyway, Varzandeh.