really confused please help!

[bigtoe]

Hiya, im new and not really sure if im posting in the right place but here goes.

All week ive been trying to get hold of my boyfriend...ive sent him numerous text messages and got no reply. so i tried calling him...his phone is switched off...all week. so naturally im worrying. anyways last night i had this dream...as far back as i can remember i am out for the day with my mum and two cousins and my auntie, im going on with my self about how i cant get hold of my boyfriend so my mum offers me her mobile phone to try and call him on. the first few times i call its switched off but for a split second it starts ringing. then goes back to answering machine. so i try calling his work number, he picks up and comes up with some excuse as to why he hasnt called me to let me know whats happened blah blah blah. next thing i remember im sat on a train with him and he is going on about some girl who he was sleeping with before he got back with me, called joanne. (in a previous dream i dreamt i went to my boyfriends apartment and found loads of womens shoes behind sofa's and under tables, there was one particular pair that stood out to me with like a checkered pattern on) he goes on to tell me that the checkered shoes were hers. then there are these images of a girl with blonde hair kind of like a pin up type girl. hes going on about how gorgeous she was and all this blab. then next thing im asking him all these questions like was he sleeping with her when hes been with me...he replys that he hasnt. but later on when i get home i switch on the computer and start searching this girls name on Faceparty > the Biggest Party on Earth™ the results show me a page with the profile name as __sunnum_38 but only the picture on this profile was of some woman with glasses and big frizzy wild curly hair selling some sort of packages for this charity thing.

im posting my dream on here because to me when i was having this dream it felt like someone was trying to tell me something. so i wake up this morning and type in the faceparty web address, i search for members under __sunnum_38 and get nothing so i try google and search...nothing...then i tried just sunnum on its own. the first result is from this website called Grace to You - Australia - The Media Ministry of Bible teacher and author John MacArthur

The title of the page ive been sent to is,

GC 1864

“The Qualities of True Love,” Part 1

1 Corinthians 13:4a

as i read on it tells me "the sunnum bonum of life is love" apparently the phrase sunnum bonum means "end goal" or "end bonus". does anyone have any idea what all this might mean or is it just me worrying too much? its this whole sunnum thing...ive never even read a bible let alone come across that word. so thats what i mean...i dont understand how or why it has been thrown into my dream. however my grandma was extremely religious, she passed away when i was four and has been dead for 15 years now and even though it probably sounds really silly...i cant help but think shes put this word into my dream. or is that impossible? for the last few weeks i have been questioning myself "what is love" trying to work out how the world defines love. i found it rather weird when i read the whole page about sunnum bonum as its contains sort of like answers to my question but none of this still makes much sense to me.

if anyone has any thoughts they would be much appreciated. i still havent managed to get hold of my boyfriend, i was thinking about calling his work since i dreamt of doing that last night. does anyone think this is a coincidence or a sign? im not sure because i have alot of dreams that later on come true or help me figure out and solve a certain problem in my life. sorry if my post has baffled you in any way. but thank you for your time.

Zoe xx

[Mandy]

Some people that have lost someone close to them believe that at time they do try and send them messages some way or another. Maybe your grandma has sent you a message just to say 'i love you'. Even though you were young and might not have many memories of her, she knew you for four years and probably thought the world of you.

As for the boyfriend, i would stop wasting time with him and move on!!