A Violent End to Pregnancy

[Calypso]

This dream has reoccurred several times, once just recently.

I am myself but sickened, everything in this dream is colored in a highly contrasted gray scale, brown looks almost black. My hair is long and sable, my ashen skin is barley pinker than the pallid plain nightgown I am clad in. Darker clouds spin across a lighter steel blue sky pouring rain, they have been raining for many days as all the ground is now muddied, and churned as if many have passed over the same earth. The only sounds I can hear are the rain and the muffled, disembodied sounds of the movements and speech around me. I am barefoot and my feet and calves are speckled with mud as if I have been marching. Feeling is also gone, though it is very cold I cannot feel it only my feet on the clay mud and the rain drops incur some feeling. I am also very much with child and am soon to give birth. I am not alone there are many other women here, they are different some blonde or lighter haired, some have darker skin but they are all pale because of the cold and the wet, all clothed as I am. But I am the only one who is pregnant. We do not speak to each other or even look at each other. There are also a group of soldiers and we seem to be their prisoners and that they have been marching us somewhere. I cannot recognize their uniforms or what nationality they are but they are not speaking English, and I cannot really hear them all I hear is the drenching rain and their orders muted and odd. They shout for us to line up shoulder to shoulder facing them. One who seems to be in charge walks down the line briefly looking at each prisoner but not stopping. Then when he walks to me, I am about in the middle of the line, he stops without even looking at me and orders me to step forward. Emotionless and rather devoid of all feeling I step forward. He locks my glance all I can look at is his eyes but the rest of the surroundings and even the rest of his face is blurred and unclear. I hear him unsheathe a large sword that is at his side. I see it flash as he draws it up, and then another flash as he slashes it across my belly. Then the trance is broken and I look down I do not feel pain or any emotion, I can feel a slight warmth as my blood rushes out and the baby spills onto the ground. My blood is not bright red, it is muted like the rest of the colors. It is pale as if it has been watered down by the rain, though it is fresher at the wound. My eyes find the baby on the ground, he is on his back facing me. His skin is ashen like mine, and his hair sable. He does not cry and barley moves, clasping and unclasping his hands, kicking slightly, and he does not open his eyes. The rain washes the faint red from his skin slowly in big drops it falls at a slower rate around him. I fall on my knees weakened, eyes still locked on the babies form. I slump, my stomach pressing into my legs and feel a slight pain from the disturbed cut. I touch the wound but do not look at it. The baby slowly stops moving, he is dying and I feel my own heart rate slow. I fall forward but not onto the baby he is at a distance from me, my eyes close as I fall and I feel the cold clay mud on my face. I exhale and awake…

but not in terror, rather in a meditative state of mind, in despair and suffering, and mournful as if my life had truly just run out.

[Varzandeh]

Hi,
if you see the Dream Dictionary Advanced here , you will see all the symbols you have in your dream:
Black clouds means a sorrow, Rain if for everywhere around means livelihoods and blessing but if only in one spot means a sorrow.Mud also means sorrows and problems.Bare feet means :1- no b/f or partner 2- no job.
Long hair for ladies means their money and their dignity and esteem.
Hearing an unknown language means wandering in an affair.
Giving birth to a baby boy means a big sorrow is on the way , but later the sorrow will fade as the baby boy died ( a baby girl means a happiness and curing an illness).
If you help a few homeless for food This sorrow and problems will pass slightly.
This may happen in a month or so.
Good luck to you.