Interesting dream about my own suicide

[Fallen_Dreamer]

So I had this dream last night that was amazingly vivid and one of the only dreams that I've remembered over the last little while.

It starts with me climbing up a stairwell of a tall building, the walls are cold cement, the stairs are metal and you can hear every step taken. The place is lit with an off white sort of light so the place has a damp looking glow to it, not badly lit but not bright either. I'm going up the stairs pretty fast, I want to get to the top badly and it's easy to see the anticipation in my eyes. I don't stop once to take a breath despite the fact that it's fairly warm and the sweat is starting to gether slightly on my forehead. Eventually, after what seems like forever I get to the top and start to calmly walk towards two closed metal doors. I put my hands on them and feel warmth, I push and throw both doors open to be greated with a blinding light and a wave of heat that manages to throw a shiver down my spine. After my eyes adjust to the bright sunlight I take a step out onto the roof of a tall skyscraper and just stand there for a minute to take in what I see.

It's a fairly large area, there's people up here talking and laughing, either standing in groups or sitting on the ledge. The sky is a beautiful blue with the odd cloud or two in the sky, the sun is shining down hard, heating the roof and the air around me, easily one of the hottest days of summer. After taking a few deep breaths I start to run as fast as I can towards ledge of the building, I don't hesitate, I don't slow down, I just run closer and closer. I hear a shrill from a girl nearby as I jump off the side of the building, throwing myself into nothing.

I'm falling now, I can see the streets below me comming closer and the building tops moving away. I just enjoy the sensation of weightlessness for a little then move myself in a laying down position, back to the ground, face to the sky. I feel the air rushing past me, my hair blowing around wildly, and I'm just looking at the sky and feeling amazingly calm and peacefull. I stretch out my arms to my sides and straighten my legs, I close my eyes and smile for the last few seconds.

At this point I woke up with a deep breath, my eyes are full of water and a tear falls down the side of my face. I'm not scared or upset though, I have an overwhelming feeling of bliss that causes me to just lay there looking at the ceiling for a moment or two. Afterwards I just start to relax again, still awake but I just close my eyes and lay down for the next hour or so before I get up and get ready for work.

I'm not exactly sure what to think of all this, it seems like a sad topic, killing myself and all, but it didn't feel negative. Not to mention that I would never dream of suicide for any reason, it's just no who I am. Any thoughts would be appreciated.

[Varzandeh]

Hi,
If one dreamt was going up a sun dried bricks or mud stairs means his affairs will arrange.If the ladder was wooden means his belief is weak.If the stairs was of stone and iron means he will have some power and benefits.If dreamt was going down stairs means he will lose some power and dignity.Ladder or stairs may also mean overcoming the enemy but for dishonest people means he is hypocrite.

If one dreamt was on an unknown roof it means a marriage or acquainting with a great woman or man as much as the roof was high.If dreamt was a known roof means he will receive dignity .If dreamt was on the king's roof it means will have dignity.If dreamt fell from a roof means a sorrow and losing dignity.

If one dreamt fell face down means will have anxiety specially in a fight and enmity.If dreamt fell from a height like a mount or a roof or a wall means he won't achieve his wish.If dreamt fell down from a mount also means his situation will be bad and will be disappointed.If dreamt fell down and was injured means will have a loss as much as bleeding.If dreamt stumbled and fell means will have some pain.If dreamt there was falling snakes and scorpions from his threshold means a sorrow from the government.If dreamt ceiling or house walls collapsed over him means he will have an unexpected big benefit and an opening.