Bad dream about estranged daughter

[iceire]

After ye read this please do not judge me,only I and my ex-husband know the truth!

First let me explain the situation....
Her father and I divorced when she was 5 yrs old and and she has 2 brothers as well,wot I didn't know was at the time I filed for divorce I would lose my children to the Federal Law "ICWA" (Indian Child Welfare Act) since my 3 (grown) children are 1/2 Alaska Native Indian they went to the tribe if ye will,I was also told to leave the reservation so I relocated to Los Angeles and for the first few months their dad and I were on good terms until he had a woman move in with him ( my oldest sons teacher),she competely turned his head around,before she was in the picture I was allowed to speak with my children on the phone and I called every weekend,sent them snail mail,gifts and cards but then this woman told my childrens father that it was a bad idea for me to be in contact by phone and any other communication so I had no contact with them for almost 3 yrs but yet was made to pay child support and still have no contact,well one day I decided to call my former sister in-law and had been told they had relocated to Anchorage so my family pulled the $ together to purchase me a plane ticket,when I arrived their dad was not happy at all or his mother,I got to see my children finally and spent as much time with them as possiable then suddenly their father up and moved them back to the reservation,he and that woman had broken up so I lost my kids a 2nd time,over the yrs I kept in contact then I just decided I was tired of all the pain and grief of not seeing my kids so I had planned to relocate back to Ireland then found out my ex had my passport revoked by way of the child support agency so I moved to my birth state (New York) to get as far away from alaska as I could and after being in NY for almost a yr my daughters 16th birthday was coming up so I sent her a card with my phone# intact like I had always done when I sent my kids something and she shocked me on the 4th of july by calling me,I was shocked and surprised at the same time,well after being in contact again with my kids I asked their father if I could bring our oldest son to NY for a summer visit and all he did was rant and rave how I abandoned my kids,I hung up,then the father called me a month later and asked me if I would take our daughter for a month cuz she was out of control,I was leary at first but my heart took over and I had come to regret it,all she did was cause prolems by taking off and not telling her where abouts or she would humiliate me in a eatery in front of the waitress so I sent her back to her dad,3 yrs later her dad did the same thing again but she was 18 by then and I told him if she acted out she was gone and lo and behold I had kicked her out after being here for 4 days,she decided to try and sabotage my marriage and was doing drugs and drinking after I told her I would not tolerate any of that,well 6 mos later she called me and not once did she ever apologise,she told me about a soldier she was seeing and also how he cheated on her with a woman in his unit and wanted to know the best way to break up with him,so I gave her a couple ideas how to do it well i come to find out she had married him,I called her on it and she told me no she didn't but then I got the proof that she had so I e-mailed her and told her i was sick of her lies and didn't care anymore wot happened to her if her marriage failed,while I was at work she had called and left a nasty message on my machine calling me foul names and even the *C* word so I knew then there was no turning back and that her and I are done for good and oh yeah,I found out when she called she had said her dad sent her to me to ruin my marriage and he had...now for the dream
I'm in a funeral parlor and am wondering why I see alot of my daughters family crying and then I look forward to the front of the parlor and she is in a coffin and she is pregnant,even in my dream I had no feelings of grief or sadness,in fact I was just not feeling any thing and when i woke I still felt the same way,to be honest I really do not care wot happens to her,she has been married 3 yrs now and has a 2 yr old daughter whom I know I will never see and I'm okay with that because just like my daugthers dad poisening her agains't me along with her brothers she will do the same thing with my grand-daughter,anyway I know I have babbled here so i will leave ye with this to think on and maybe ye can tell me wot the dream mean's!

[unclesirbobbyrobson]

Hi

Well dreams to me link to the strategies you are thinking through. When you appear cold towards your daughter it maybe linking to your acceptance of the situation... a need to accept that she has been cut out of your life... and that her memory of you has been poisoned...

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