Man I dated and fell in love with - but not with him now

[bonnie46]

I met this man in 1997 in church when I was married. When he shook my
hand electricity went through me and I said to my mother "If I ever get a
divorce that is the man I want" she said to me you are not getting a divorce
I said "I know that -I don't know why I said that". But in 2000 my husband left
me for someone else. So this man and I spent alittle time together - then
he walked away from me. He started to see a 25 year old girl. This really
hurt me and I started to cry about it and what I thought was an Angel put
there arms around me - and my mind - keep repeating "I have to go to Church" So I did on a Wednesday night-and they passed around a bowl with
names in it and we were told to pick one and pray for that person - I did -
and I pulled his name. The hair on my arm stood straight up. The next
Wed. I pulled his parents name to pray for..So I went on with my life then
we reconnected and spent alittle more time together dating and he walked
away again. So one night I could not sleep because I was thinking about
him being with another girl - and this overwhelming peace rolled through
my body and words that came into my mind was "It doesn't matter you
get him for a life time." So one night I went to bed and asked God if me and
this man are to be together, please give me a month and a year when that
will happen. (In my dream) He walks up to me and says - I will not
be racing on Sept 8th can be get together then? I have also had dreams
where this man Says to me "I love you" In this dream I was going to my
sons graduation and He said to me as I was leaving "I love you" my son
will graduate from college in 2 years. He is now living with or married to someone.
Any help would be greatly appreciated.