Recurring dream

[Alison81]

I am 27. Last year on october 12, 2007 I lost a baby at 14 weeks. It was a very wanted pregnancy, and losing that baby was very hard for me and my boyfriend. My boyfriend and I started trying to have another baby in december, with no success, months and months of disappointment. In june 2008 we broke up, but we've been rebuilding things, still sleeping together, and may be getting back together. Of course, the chance for pregnancy is still there every month, but it doesn't happen. I already have 1 daughter, who is almost 5, and he has 3 kids.

I tend to have dreams that mean something. I dreamt I got a positive pregnancy test before I actually got one with the pregnancy and baby I lost. But I have only had sad dreams regarding pregnancy since losing the baby. One is now a recurring dream.

The first time I had the dream, I was pregnant, and was starting to have contractions. I drove myself to the hospital with my daughter, and got checked in. The nurses were acting weird when I told them I was in labor, and didn't monitor me or anything, just sat me in a chair in a room. A lot of time passed, and I wasn't having contractions anymore, and my daughter wanted dinner, and I was about to leave when the doctor came in. He looked at my chart, and then looked at me, and says, I'm sorry, you said you're in labor? And it's then that I realize I'm not in labor, I'm not even pregnant. Embarassed, I get my clothes on and run out of the hospital. And it took forever to find the way out, and then I was in a museum, so that part didn't make sense, lol. But when I am leaving the hospital I'm depressed, and afraid I'll never be pregnant again, and sad that I should have already had a baby.

I had a similar dream last night. This time, my ex was in the dream, only we were together again, and I was telling him that I was soo uncomfortable, and couldn't wait to get the baby out of me. I kept rubbing my belly, and talking about the baby. I am pregnant, and due any day, only, as I'm dreaming, I know I'm not pregnant at all. And yet, I go on and on about being uncomfortable and feeling the baby kicking. We send the kids to school, and I say I am having contractions, and ask my ex, who is no longer my ex in the dream, to drive me to the hospital. On the way to the hospital I realize I'm not pregnant at all, and don't know how I will tell him that I was never pregnant to begin with. I feel bad that he is going to miss work for nothing, and then he'll be mad that I'm not really pregnant, and he thought I was. Oh, but I guess this time, I had seen an ultrasound and I wondered if maybe this time I was really just early in my pregnancy.....and I started thinking, okay, I'm not in labor, but I know I'm pregnant, I had an ultrasound, I WAS pregnant....but then I went back to, I know I'm not pregnant, so that part was confusing, and I'm not sure if maybe I was just hoping I had had an ultrasound and was pregnant, just not that far along, or if I really was....but the main idea was that I was acting like I was pregnant, even being far along, when I really wasn't. And in my dream I didn't understand how he never figured out that I wasn't really pregnant, as I didn't have a belly at all. And I was embarassed that I thought I could be pregnant. I had this last dream the day before I got my period this month, and knew another month passed without getting pregnant.

Anyone have any idea what this means? My fear is that it's telling me I'll never be pregnant again, and that all I will ever know is wishing I was pregnant again.

[Varzandeh]

Hi,
Usually pregnancy is a symbol for some money as much as the belly was big.

Of course these dreams may be caused by your fear or great enthusiast.

Any way getting pregnant has other symbols like haing a calf or a little deer or some basil ( vegetable).
Don't think too much about it , it will find its true way, because it is not your first pregnancy you won't have any problems.
Good luck.