Me and Buddha

[jyotib]

Before writing about my dream, I want to give a brief description of my beliefs. I am a Hindu by birth, my I am not very religious by nature. From my childhood I am very fond of Buddha. To me he is not a God. Although I worship him, but as a man. I feel that I can connect to him personally only if I consider him as a man. I feel very much distanced if I try to think of him as a God. But is absolutely my personal belief and I have no intention to hurt anyones personal and religious beliefs.

Now my dream -
I was talking to Buddha about mundane things of my life (I do that while awake also - I have a Buddha idol on my bedside table, and I talk to him when I am alone in my room. But the Buddha of my dream is not an idol but a human being). He was smiling at me and was answering my questions too. We were sitting on a park bench and it was a bright sunny morning. Suddenly the back-drop changed and I found myself sitting on a huge rock and the place was a rocky and deserted place. The sky was also very gloomy. It wasn't dark but it seemed that it was about to rain heavily. I turned and looked beside me and Buddha was still there. But his smile has gone. Then suddenly he started to weep and tears were rolling down his cheeks and he started to speak in an absolutely unknown language. It seemed that he was mourning. I tried to console him and was constantly telling him that i didn't understand a word he was uttering. Then I hugged him and again tried to console him. I closed my eyes and hold his face close to my chest.

But when I opened my eyes, the Buddha has changed. He had become small. Almost like a small child. When I looked at his face, he was not a small child but an ugly looking dwarf. The dwarf had a very nasty smile. I got frightened at his sight and started to run. I looked behind and the dwarf was running behind me to catch me. I got more frigtened and ran more fast. But I toppled and started to fall down in a very dark well kind of place. I was screaming but I was constantly falling down.

Then I suddenly opened my eyes and found myself on my bed. My clothes were absolutely wet due to profuse perspiration.

The dream was so disturbing that I couldn't sleep that night.

Could someone please interpret my dream and explain to me that what is the reason behind this dream!

Thanks in advance.

[aomkitten]

I am kind of new at this stuff, but I am thinking I may have an answer to the last part of the dream. You said you feel distance between Budha and yourself when you think of him as a God. Perhaps you feel that way because the thought of Budha as a God is frightening and intimidating to you. The Budha that chased you and looked mean, may be your minds way of expressing this fear and intimidation you feel in reality.

[jyotib]

May be your explanation is true............... thanks a lot.