Cheating Dreams.

[Fluffysld77]

I have been with my current boyfriend for nearly 8 months now. In total I have had about four dreams where I cheated on him in. [I could be off by a bit, those are just the ones I remember]

The first one was quite a few months ok and in the dream I had sex with Jared Padelecki. That was basically all that happened.

In the second one there was a Freshmen [I was just ending my Sophomore year in high school, or it was in the beginning of the summer] that kept basically following me around. I forget his name now, but I have never seen him before, he was just kind of short. He kept offering to give me rides to places. One day I had to stay after because apparently the Yearbook was coming out [I am my school's Yearbook editor] and the yearbooks that I saw (btw, it was winter in the dream, way too soon for the yearbook to be out) was a pink cover of a Shakespeare book [the type that have the translation inside] and the whole book was just text. And I was pissed/confused. But I got over it and then I realized that I didn't have a ride home [no after-school buses that day] and so, the Freshmen kid offered me a ride. We sat in the backseat, because of course his "Mommy" was driving. And then we arrived at my house and I kissed him and left. My first thoughts were, "Damnit, I didn't make it to six months." As in, you know how surveys on MySpace always ask "Can you go six months without cheating?" Well, I had never been able to say that since my only other relationship lasted two weeks. So I wanted to be able to.

In my third dream my family-friend, Jaime was living with us. He's exactly a year older than me, lives next door to my Granny, went to school with me for a few years, is good friends with my cousin. And I had like him on and off for several years. Of course I hadn't even thought about him in that way for over two years. But anyway, his room was very close to mine and his girlfriend was there. They had seperate beds that were next to each other and basically laid there all day watching TV, so I rarely saw them. But on the First Day of school, apparently, he was in the kitchen getting breakfast, as was I. Then he kind of pushed me up against the backdoor, started making out with me and then kind of just rubbed his hand over my vagina. Then I left for school, but I had to walk around the school to take pictures for Yearbook and I was following this fairly attractive guy in a suit that Sorgi [Yearbook Advisor] told me to follow. So I missed getting my new classes and I didn't get to see Dan [boyfriend] until the end of the day when all the students were taken to a resort-type house that could definitely not be afforded by our school and we just said there. I found Dan, sat next to him and tried to kiss his arm, since that's the only thing near me [he was in the a chair and I was on the floor] but he just kind of brushed his hand away and wouldn't talk to me at all. That was basically it.

In my fourth dream I had finally seen Dan after about a week of not seeing him and a week and three days without ****ing him. And we didn't **** at all, although we had the ability to [no parents]. And I got all pissed off. Then I had apparently had a second boyfriend [a guy who I never liked, but liked me a lot Freshmen Year and is my friends older brother]. I went over to his house only once a month because I didn't like him at all. They bought me a car just so I could go over there more often. I never did anything, but kiss him. But I had no need for him, didn't like him, didn't want to be with him. And I think he knew about Dan. But Dan never found out or suspected. And that was it.

There was also another one where my hideous ex-boyfriend kidnapped me and tried to rape me. He wouldn't let me go all summer, finally I escaped and Dan wouldn't talked to me because I just disappeared and my ex went to my school at the time [although not in real life] and I had to find a way to tell him what happened since I couldn't tell him in the open.

So, those are my dreams. Any interpretations?
I can tell you that I do have fears that he'll abandon me by falling in love with someone else [I get mad, although I don't show because I don't have the right, when he talks to other females because of that]. Also that I really have never cheated, but I am a writer and I do write about people in the story cheating.

[journalgrrl]

Without going into all the deatils, 8 months is another layer of intimacy for a relationship, could you be seeing things that you don't like or qualities you are missing in him?

that could be the simple explanation...?