Lengthy dream

[littlecleo]

I am not sure about these dreams...without being graphic.
I dreamt I am in a car lot looking for my car and some guy was being perverted with a blue baby clothing and I ran away and ran through the parking lot and saw my ex husband off to the side and kept running..I ended up in a mall and was trying to find Joe which was my best friend from high school..I sat up at the bar table eating and looked into the eyes of a guy who grabbed my hand and I was okay then.

The only thing I can think is that my daughter who was r*** by my ex-husband in 2003 and almost died, I found a year later after that my son wasn't autistic that my ex was abusing him too while I was at work. He only got 9 years and it has been 5 years now..I do fear when my ex gets out in 4 more years. (thank God I am in another state,near my family) My daughter is now married and I have a new grandson..I am thinking that I am worried about the what could be's and the protection of my grandson. I am not sure who this guy is who was holding my hand but maybe this could be someone telling me, to hold on to faith and try to feel safe.

I am tired of seeing that pervert in my dreams..I wish my ex would go away. I know I even went to the doctor and they said that because I found my daughter and it was in my own home, that is a huge violation of security...what is others thoughts.

[Jennings]

As those incidents are of fairly recent origin then the shock of them has inevitably wounded you deeply and in some ways it is like suffering bereavement at the demise of the life that you originally thought you had.

Like the grief in bereavement you can feel at times like the 'sludge at the bottom of the sewer' and it can take time for the healing to be completed.

You will be fully aware that you can get a Court Order preventing your husband from having access to the family home or to his children and the social services children's section should be able to support you in this respect. Your apprehension of his appearance coupled with the trauma of those events is keeping your dreams alive but if you are successful at getting him banned from the home and family this fear should begin to subside.

I take it that the social services children's section is already involved in your family.

[sailrmc]

As you suspect this dream is related to the terrible events that you mentioned. This particular one is a sort of chronicle that places blame away from you, and the innuendo is all but being screamed...that you should in no way feel guilty for what has happened. The chronicle continues as you run (to safety) and find solace as you looked for an old friend.
This brings you full circle to where you are now...You are in the healing stage and this dream depicts it.

Your subconsicous mind is telling you that you were not to blame, you did the best that you could by getting out and away from where this happened AND now the subconscious mind stands ready to help you heal. IN reality it is your mentor and friend. This part of you is there to help you, to offer guidence, in addition to it's own brand of healing.
Be ready to watch and listen to your dreams as they offer therapy and solace to you. This will allow you to deal with the past as well as help you to prepare for the future.

Traumatic events can never be completely forgotten but they can be resolved. It appears as if you are about to get the gift of peace through resolution courtesy of your higher self, your subconscious mind.
What an incredible gift!!
sailrmc

[littlecleo]

Yes, 5 years ago..it seems like forever though. Unfortunetly, the town I lived in my ex's dad is a multi-millionaire and the sister was best friends with someone at social services. They didn't file charges on my son as they said making him relive it could put him in the silence state again..not true actually, he is very vocal about what has happened. Infact, the ex's mom which I have frequent dreams about yelling at her, which I never have. Knew about my son and never told me (her son admitted it while incarcerated), she filed for visitation on my divorce day so she is allowed to get pictures of my son, etc. She is only doing it for my ex, I am going to meet with individuals here that can help with support for my son. I think it is sad because I want to move on and be happy and find someone. I worked in the legal field at the time and gave that up because I felt as though the court couldn't protect me so my career was against what I believe in. I am glad though that I dream about things that are relevant to my life, because it is therapy in itself.I am glad that both of my children are very open and trust me, we can talk about their feelings and I am there for them. Maybe one day someone great will come along, but for now I am working on my Bachelor's in Management and working full-time...Thanks so much for all of the input. Oh, he has no access to my home and cannot contact us. So I havent seen him for years which is great. I feel blessed that my daughter married her high school sweetheart and his dad was a detective at the police department. When she had her son (my grandson), she says "mom I won, I am the happiest, I have ever been"..they didn't think she could have children because of the trauma and she did. These are blessings, she did however say that she would like for me to meet someone and try and love/trust again..The good thing is that I catch major warning signs and with my dreams have definetly made better choices in my life. You can be the best parent and still something can happen to your children. I questioned, if I only came home for lunch that day..but he planned on killing all of us...so like my daughter said..we can all live, it's bad what happened, but we are a family and he didn't destroy that.

[Jennings]

Thank you for the acknowledgement and for filling in the empty spaces to this incident. Hopefully, you will find your dream man.