My Bizarre Dream

[HDELOZIER]

The first thing I remember is carrying groceries into an old woman’s house with 3 other people. Later I found out that me and my daughter, about age 12 at the time, lived with this old woman – and they had stayed back at the house while me and the 3 other people went to get the groceries. I didn’t know the 3 other people with me, and can barely remember their faces – but do remember there was a middle-aged man and woman, and what I assume to be their older son.

It was dusk, and while we were walking from the car we had been talking about the odd happens that had recently occurred in the town. There was talk of a creature that lurked in the shadows and attacked its victims only at night. On the walk from the car to the house, we realize that things were way to quiet outside and suspected the creature was nearby. As I walked up a seemingly tall stairway that led to the small balcony of the house (I was last in the line carrying groceries up), I noticed some slight movement in the shadows of a large object in the yard – and quickly realized the creature was hiding there watching us, getting ready to strike. I ran up the stairs warning them all to get inside, while passing everyone else and I ran into the house. For some reason, the 3 people were curious and stayed behind on the stairs to see the creature.

As I was yelling to them to get in the house – the creature leaped up the stairs and attacked the middle-aged man first. The creature was a large wolf-like animal that was about 6-feet tall or so. It had black fur with a spiked white streak of fur down it’s back and large green glowing eyes. It’s mouth and teeth were like that of a wolf or rabid dog in attack mode.

As I watched the creature devour the man, I tried to get the woman and boy to come inside so I could close as lock the door – but they wouldn’t – they were trying to help the man. Finally, to keep the creature from coming inside, I closed the door and ended up watching through the glass of the door while the creature killed and devoured all 3 people.

Next, I quickly ran to the old woman and my daughter and found places to hide inside the house in case the creature was able to come in. The next thing I remember is the creature passing by us in our hiding place – unable to detect that we were there. Somehow I figured out that the creature did not attack unless someone was close enough to it to breathe in some sort of evil vapor that was emitted from the creature. So when it passed by us, as long as we didn’t breathe this vapor in, we were safe.

The next thing I remember was waking up at 4:30am in real life and feeling like I had just watched a horror movie. Then as I lay there in bed half asleep still I was thinking, “I should write a horror movie from this” -- but I don't even like horror movies!

If anyone can give me their take on this dream, I would appreciate it.

[sailrmc]

Hello HDELOZIER,

I will look at your dream a sentence at a time or group of several sentences at a time and comment in blue, afterwards. At the end of your dream I will summarize . This will show how I derive my information and come to my conclusion. As well, this way can be a bit trite and figurative but I will try to explain as I go through.

Here we go...

The first thing I remember is carrying groceries into an old woman’s house with 3 other people.this shows where you are coming from so to speak. There have been concerns that have been brought to the part of the mind (in your subconscious) from your waking life and the groceries simply illustrate how the wise aspect of the subconscious mind has collected that which it is about to comment on. Later I found out that me and my daughter, about age 12 at the time, lived with this old womanMany times the daughter can refer to the dreamer as if to say that this dream is refers to feelings and emotions caused by an event at the time that you, yourself were 12. It may also refer to your daughter and your in real life. We will see... – and they had stayed back at the house while me and the 3 other people went to get the groceries.This line represents the way that the processes fo the mind work. You simply deliver the information (through simply experiencing 'things" in your daily routine and the mind collects every detail. Some of the details of the experiences are merely filed away (chalking them up to experience and content that can be recalled in the future. This content becomes the conditioning that makes you the person that you are. AND some of the experiences are put in a buffer type of storage, as information tht the dreaming mind (same as subconscious mind) feels that it needs to comment on. It becomes prioritized...fear is the first priority, then personal safety, etc. I didn’t know the 3 other people with me, and can barely remember their faces – but do remember there was a middle-aged man and woman, and what I assume to be their older son.These are the aspects of yourself (if you think about it we are made up of many aspects...There is HDELOZIER the child, HDELOZIER the parent (both male and female... each represents the socially typical traits...the male parent aspect of you would be on that is decisive, protective, aggressive...and the female parent being the part of you that is compassionate, loving, caring, responsive etc). HDELOZIER the grandparent (this part of your persona contains the wisdom etc. that both, relate to what is to be commented upon. We all contain, within us, a combination or collection of these parts that make us the person that we have become. The three who are with you are the aspects of your persona that will handle the dream in your subconscious mind.

It was dusk, As you have seen by now many dreams line out the processes of the mind and and what is happening in those processes. Your mind is saying, hey HDELOZIER, now this dream is coming to you care of the subconscious mind, the part of you that is best known for working in the dark of night but collects the information from your waking life. and while we were walking from the car we had been talking about the odd happens that had recently occurred in the town.representing the things that are occurring in your midst (in your waking life) There was talk of a creature that lurked in the shadows and attacked its victims only at night.The dark shadowy creature is very classic and universal in meaning. It represents a dark side or negative presence that lurks in your waking life). Typically the traits of the dark shadowy figure as pointed out by Carl Jung give clues as to what specific negative aspect is represented by the dark shadowy figure (for more on Jung, Google, Carl Jung, archetypes...then scroll down to dark shadowy figure). On the walk from the car to the house, we realize that things were way to quiet outside and suspected the creature was nearby. The house typically indicates the "within", or something that is part of your emotional or internal make up. Walking up to the house (if in fact it was not the exact real life dwelling that you live in, represents a look at you and the person that you are. So you see all of this dream so far is just setting up much like this, like a golf announcer....here we are on the scene, you are about to go to sleep and see what will be commented upon...It has to do with something in your waking life that affects you, inside, the person that you are inside. so lets see what happens next!As I walked up a seemingly tall stairway that led to the small balcony of the houseThis is universal dream symbolism that will show, that which you are to see from a different perspective...as if to say, (golf announcer again)...OK now we are looking from the balcony (a higher perspective) so HDELOZIER can gain clear and objective knowledge of what is to be shown. (I was last in the line carrying groceries up),As I said earlier this is food for thought...and it happens to be about you and not anyone else. I noticed some slight movement in the shadows of a large object in the yard – and quickly realized the creature was hiding there watching us, getting ready to strike.A negative aspect is about to be revealed. I ran up the stairs warning them all to get inside, while passing everyone else and I ran into the house.It is something that you are clearly afraid or cautions of. For some reason, the 3 people were curious and stayed behind on the stairs to see the creature.So now the three people (aspects of you) are willing and waiting to see that negative that affects you in your life. It causes fear within you...and now you are going to face it? We will see.

As I was yelling to them to get in the house – the creature leaped up the stairs and attacked the middle-aged man first.This is something that affects you in your real life. (assuming that you are middle aged) The creature was a large wolf-like animal that was about 6-feet tall or so. It had black fur with a spiked white streak of fur down it’s back and large green glowing eyes. It’s mouth and teeth were like that of a wolf or rabid dog in attack mode.Now we know that this aspect that affects you greatly is anger...but we do not know (yet) if this anger is something that you harbor within or if it is fear of someone else from your waking life who lashes out and causing and causes great fear or at least someone else that you would just like to avoid because of "UNPREDICTABLE" anger that they wield. Someone...(it might be some else OR even you yourself. Has an anger issue. The word anger covers a lot of ground , anger caused by this or that. Let's see if we can further identify the brand of anger that is bothering you to the core (all the way to the subconscious level, your mentor and friend who is pointing out this threat in your life and how it makes you feel). Due to length of content constraints I had to break this up into two separate postings...see next posting for continuation.

[sailrmc]

Here is the second part of my evaluation. Due to length constraints I had to break it into two parts.

As I watched the creature devour the man,This may depict the fact that your anger is self destructive OR as I mentioned before that someone in your life is a huge threat to you (at the very least on an emotional level). I tried to get the woman and boy to come inside so I could close as lock the door – but they wouldn’t – they were trying to help the man.Your compassionate side (the woman) and the young bright side (the boy) are at risk of being damaged and you would like to protect them but they are willing to stand up, or face up to what is happening because if the man looses then they loose (you see that these are all contributors to the single person that you are inside). If you loose, they all loose because you are one in the same! Finally, to keep the creature from coming inside, I closed the door and ended up watching through the glass of the door while the creature killed and devoured all 3 people.This anger has really hurt you badly. It has changed the person that you have become! (looking from the perspective given) you have shut this anger out trying to protect yourself). By now you know exactly what I am talking about, because you are aware. Something has hurt you and it affects you to this day. The mind is likely about to tell you that you need to deal with whatever caused this anger that haunts you to to this day.

Next, I quickly ran to the old woman and my daughter and found places to hide inside the house in case the creature was able to come in. Here I will venture to say that you want to protect your waking life family (not figuratively speaking here). You do not way them to be affected by anger that either lives within or that was caused by someone else in your life and now affects you, almost in a random fashion, in some way. The next thing I remember is the creature passing by us in our hiding place – unable to detect that we were there. Somehow I figured out that the creature did not attack unless someone was close enough to it to breathe in some sort of evil vapor that was emitted from the creature. So when it passed by us, as long as we didn’t breathe this vapor in, we were safe.A little sketchy here but I will put my neck on the block and say that you are being shown that if you (or your family in real life) are not subjected to anger (either by you or this, someone that caused you to feel the way that you do feel, it will not be transferred. This is knowledge that says that you can break the cycle of unpredictable anger but not letting it in to your life (not allowing it to be taken in will keep others from feeling the rage that you have been exposed to).

The next thing I remember was waking up at 4:30am in real life and feeling like I had just watched a horror movie. Then as I lay there in bed half asleep still I was thinking, “I should write a horror movie from this” -- but I don't even like horror movies! This is a horror movie all right but it is one that affects you and your dreaming mind has scripted, cast, and directed it, just for you. Your seat was a higher perspective that allows for objective viewing and evaluation from a safe place so that you will not be awakened. The mind gives us such safety so that we will not disconnect from the dream in mid stream. This way we will more likely to stick it out and watch.
The next step is to take what I have said and overlay it to your life and find parallels...some area that it applies. I may be slightly off on parts but, worst case, you will better know what is affecting you, in general. Keep in mind that the subconscious, tells it like it is. It does not lie, but sometimes it will seemingly overdramatize (is that a word?) to make it's point.
With out a doubt, something is threatening you. Because it threatens you it threatens those you love. You are told that you have been keeping your fear and associated feelings within you in an effort to protect those you love. The only way to avoid passing this negative aspect on to others is not to internalize it. You must come to grips with the fact that it haunts you and if in fact you show unpredictable anger then it needs bridling. If it is anger from someone outside...perhaps a parent, and not you...then perhaps you need to be careful of exposing your family to this person in your life. One more thing...I think that I saw a reference glowing green eyes? Typically this brand of anger is based on jealousy! You might ask yourself if negative comments regarding jealousy are present in your life. In someway, something extremely negative is affecting you and it will completely devour you (if it has not already). There is a positive side! YES, I SAID POSITIVE!!
You can take what this dream is saying to you and make changes because you are now fully conscious of this situation. You know that you must acknowledge that which has so negatively affected you to the core, then you must close the door on that chapter of your life and not practice any of the anger based emotion that you have been exposed to.
Just a guess, did something happen about the age 12 that caused this?

I feel that I am dead on track but then again I have been known to be wrong. My apologies if I am wrong.
Either way I would like to hear what your thoughts are! Good or bad they will not offend me.
Best regards,
sailrmc
If anyone can give me their take on this dream, I would appreciate it.

[HDELOZIER]

Sailrmc -- thank you so much for your interpretation of my dream. I had suspected what it was about - but your evaluation completely confirmed it for me. It's difficult for me to give the nutshell version of the real life happenings that lead to this dream, but I'll try.
You see, last year my 16 year old daughter had a 19 year old friend in the neighborhood that hung out an out house and eventually become a fixture in our house -- always calling himself my son and calling me mom. His background is one that no child should have to endure -- so to sort of guide him, my husband and I took him under our wing and treated him like family. He constantly told me how I was the only real mother he'd ever known - since his mother wasn't around since he was about 15.
Over the course of about 8-10 months, one dramatic situation after another was happening with this boy -- cutting himself, talk of taking his life, getting drunk, lying ... I felt like I was being sucked into this kids life without a choice in the matter. I tried to stick with it and mentor him. But then one day back in January my daughter was upset because her boyfriend had broken up with her - so he got my daughter drunk! I was livid!!! My daughter fessed up to it (mostly because it was so obvious that she was drunk), so I called him and he lied about it - then eventually told me the truth, but during the course of the conversation would not tell me what he gave her to drink. Well my daughter has a pacemaker and other health issues -- so if I had to take her to the hospital to get her stomach pumped, I would need all the information I could. This was the straw that broke the camels back so to speak. During that phone call, I told him he was never allowed at my house or around my child again (in not such a nice way of course).
Which brings me to the day before the dream -- I hadn't seen nor heard from him since then until the day before the dream. He showed up at my door apologizing for what had happened -- ironically and stupidly, he was drunk -- he said he didn't have the courage to talk to me without being drunk. Like an idiot, he had driven to my house, yes drunk. So I couldn't let him drive home and didn't want his drunk belligerent self in the front yard of my neighborhood (we live in a very nice quiet neighborhood) -- so I brought him into the house and my husband and I spoke to him for a few hours. Apologies were accepted, and lectures were given -- and for some reason, he was under the impression that since I forgave him, he was welcome back into our lives the same way he was before -- but that is not the case. At any rate, I ended up driving him home and he said he'd like to talk again when he isn't drunk. So the next day, I painfully toiled over the situation in my head - it pretty much consumed my thoughts all day. Then that night I had the dream. The next day I suspected the creature in my dream symbolized him and/or the turmoil I feel over this situation. One part of me wants to let him back into our lives to guide him (he really needs adult guidance and advice on a regular basis) -- but the other part of me just doesn't want to deal with the drama anymore -- and all of his drama is self-created - it's so ridiculous. He came back the next day, but I wasn't here - and I haven't seen him since the night he showed up here -- so I'm sort of avoiding the inevitable 'talk' with him. I have so many other things on my plate right now, that I just don't feel like dealing with his plateful too. I know it sounds terrible.
As for something happening to me when I was 12 - who knows -- it was a long time ago -- as you suspected, I am a middle aged woman ... just turned 40. And by the way -- my daughter and I were very impressed by your thorough evaluation of my dream! We read it together and both knew right away what and who the dream was about.
As for the green eyes symbolizing jealousy - I'm not exactly sure where that fits in, but I'm sure I'll figure it out with some thought. Perhaps I am jealous of the easy relationship other parents have with this boy - he only drags me into his drama.
Again - thank you so much for your thorough evaluation - it really gives me some peace of mind to know that I'm on the right track. Thanks!

[sailrmc]

Thank you for your thank you and detailed response. Hearing genuine responses is the only way that I am able to become better at dream evaluation. Genuine responses is also very rewarding. When I say genuine I do mean that I am prepared to take the good with the bad. In this case my read was helpful...of that I am truly happy.

Of course the following is my comment and not that of your subconscious mind.
One thing that I wanted to comment on...Working this whole situation out with your daughter and husband can only bring you closer. True, most people would not have taken the risk (apparently you had not a clue as to what the real risk was at the outset), but you have tried and I think that your daughter senses the love and care that you have poured out to this boy. The important thing is that she understands why, that which has happened, has in fact happened. It is not your fault, and in fact you were very methodical in your approach is so very important.
I also see that not allowing this boy into your home again is teaching him as well. He knows that you were loving, and that you did not have to go out of your way to be this way to him. He will more easily see that he blew a wonderful thing and long from now he will remember the love and trust that you extended to him. I think if you will not allow him back in, it shows that just saying I am sorry, is not good enough. Letting him back in would positively enforce his negative performance and thus set you up for more obliteration (not to mention the effect on your family). I am sure that you will be kind to him, and by doing this it will show him that it was not purely anger that got him thrown out, but the fact that he really messed up by bringing negative things in to your daughters life, and that will never be tolerated.
Again thanks, and best of luck.
sailrmc