scary dream about my children, any help appreciated

[desternies]

Hello, I had a terrible dream this am and actually awoke with tears streaming down my face It was very real, very detailed and in color if that helps anyone.

People involved : myself (27), oldest daughter Kairi (3 1/2), youngest daughter Bailey(2), and a few men/onlookers.
Lake: the size of long island sound (huge)

It began at a lake with a boat ride that i can only describe as partly automated till you got out onto the lake(conveyor system). The boats were small (3-4people) numbered and had different color stripes. I was bringing my children onto this ride, they ran ahead of me about 20ft and i was distracted for a moment by other people getting on their boats. My children boarded the boat before i got there and the boat took off. It went along a track lined with rocks untill it reached the lake.....i ran to catch them and i reached the end of the rocks. I had been yelling to alert people that my kids were on the boat alone and i needed help. as i reached the end of the rocks both children were looking over the edge. the youngest bailey fell into the lake but a floatie tube appeared and she fell directly into it. it was only half inflated and she was struggling i swam along the right side the boat telling Kairi to say in and to sit down and wait for mom i would be back to get her but dont get up or look over. The boat was wood and had a red stripe along the top it was numbered 22. the boat then driffted into open water. i was swiming with my arms outstretched to get bailey and i finally was able to catch up. I grabbed her leg and pulled her towards me at that point she took in a little water. I turned back to find the boat and kairi and they were both gone. I had to decide what to do. swim with a toddler searching for a boat that had dissapeared or get her to the ride area and get another boat and more help. I decided to go to shore and get more help. as i returned i was helped out of the water, i explained to the ride operator (stalky man, white shirt, balding with scruffy beard 40'ish) what had happened and he got on the walkie talkie and put the word out.....took bailey to nurses station and got me back on a boat. I went back out to the lake and looked desperately for her yelling her name, telling her to stay in the boat, begging nearby people to help me. I returned to the ride after about 2hrs of looking to get an update and see if more help can come. but no word on her......the ride operator mentioned it was getting dark soon and air support might be needed. I begged him to have them call in the helicopter i said "shes very clumbsy and too curious for her own good she could have fallen in" He aggreed and called in more help. A man standing in line(30ish, well kept, dark hair medium build with blue eyes) gave me his "club" card on a key ring with several other cards on it (grocery store type). He said to take a boat to stamford (city along the coast) because the current goes that way and the only way into the private water area is with the club card. I returned to the boat once again ( different boats each time, colors, #'s ect) and headed in the direction he told me. I searched and searched crying out to her i recall it getting dark and seeing the helicopter overhead with the spot light on. The saddness i felt durring this whole dream was unbelieveable, gut wrenching heart stopping saddness. I was crying in my dream calling out to her saying baby i love you mommy will find you stay where you are. I searched along the rocks and the shoreline hoping to find her and loosing hope as the night wore on......after hours of looking i returned to the ride area and there were crowds of people watching/helping. as i returned i could see all the sad faces, very vividly, crying, looking at me with such pitty and noone said a word. within 24hrs they found the boat #22.........empty with no signs of my child.

I went back every day for weeks......searching for any sign of her, her clothes, hair tie, shoes, anything. spending the whole day from sun up to sun down looking in those waters. so sad, hopeless, fearfull, sickened and in a state of shock. On one return trip to the ride entrance (lined with rock paths) i saw her...........walking along the path back to the line area. I jumped out of the boat and chased after her calling her name. I got to her and she had a sad expression. i turned her around and said "baby its mommy". she smiled a bit and said "mommy there you are" we huged tightly for a while, i asked her what happened. She again looked sad and seemed like she couldnt say or express. suddenly i noticed all the people in line were naked men, pear shaped with a large stomach very detailed, small scar below belly button as if surgery scar. It was as if she was showing me what she could not say.....like it was seared into her memory. she then gave me a kiss as i was kneeling with her. but it wasnt a normal kiss. she gave me a "adult kiss" (no tounge) and kept saying "i love you". I told her that we dont kiss that way and showed her a mommy kiss! she said "no like this mommy" and did it again. I asked her if she had anything else to tell me and she wanted to show me her teeth. She had 2 cavitys on her back molars one on each side. i said thank you and told her she has lots of beautiful teeth. She once again became very sad and pulled away from me. She began to walk back to the boat ride as if to get on a boat as if she was forced to repeat the events of that day over and over. I reached out for her and wept stammering out " i love you baby" over and over. I got into my car and left for home, very upset and i felt as if i were dying inside. as soon as i got home i recieved a phone call from the lead investigator telling me a childs body had been recoverd by dive teams but there was no way to know for sure because there are no dental records or xrays to compare to. I told the investigator about my experience i just had and i said....."she has 2 circular cavitys. in her back molars, she just showed them to me" He said to me in a cracked upset voice "well then its her". I fell to the floor weeping for my child knowing that someone had done something to her and left her to die.

I awoke with a wet pillow from the tears that were uncontrollable. my heart was racing and i felt like i was going to throw up at any moment. I cant begin to explain the extent of the emotions i was feeling. it has been bothering me all day and i hope that some interpretation will help me to understand what my brain is trying to tell me!!!

Thank you for taking the time to read this post i appreciate any help you may offer..........

[niunia]

Dream is telling you to start dealing with your emotions.

Your might sometimes feel very overwhelmed with your kids and responsibilities. Lets say you get frustrated, your kids father might not be too helpful. You get the thought of 'getting up and leaving' going through your mind, but then right away you feel guilty. You might think to yourself like 'whats wrong with me, a good mother wouldnt do that' . Right after that you feel guilty, thinking what possesed you to even allow such thoughts...You might be wishing it was easier with taking care of kids. (are you going through counceling/therapy??)

You might need some time alone with your 'partner' for rekindling and to talk.

A question for you....Do you suspect hes cheating or doesnt wanna be with you and deep down you know it? (might be opposite as in youre the one-and you feel like hes seeing right throught you) Also, is he/you withdrawn? (are you married, or would you like to get married and he doesn't, or are you a single mom?)

K... might be stubborn, and misbehave because she might be jellous of the younger baby. This might be making you torn between 'giving both kids equal love', making sure they know its 50/50 in a 101% kinda way for both.

All in all, control your emotions. Also, dont do onto others, for the others will do greater upon you.

[Judith]

Boats are the vessels by which we navigate our emotions. Private waters are secret emotions that are shared only with a select few, hence the club. Ironically, while this dream might be revealing something about how you are feeling about your own two daughters, I don't think it is about your daughters. I think it's about you. I think you have suppressed something tragic that happened to you in your childhood that you have been unwilling to face.

Teeth usually indicate speech or expression of thoughts and feelings because they are associated to the mouth. Cavities symbolize the decay of speech or expression of one's self. A festering, so to speak, as a result of not communicating a secret that has eaten a hole through you.

You chose to focus on the nice teeth (denial) instead of the cavities.

Kissing is another form of communication. Your inner child is trying to convey a message to you in a way that you can understand it, as an adult. Yet, because you are not willing to accept or embrace this message you try to force it into submission by demanding it remain like a child. You don't want to hear the message because you are fearful of becoming overwhelmed by what the message contains. A part of you emotionally died long ago because of something that happened to you. Something that was innocent was tainted by adult behavior and speech, and while there were others nearby willing to help, it was too late. The damage was already done.

Now I'm going to go way out on a limb here, as I think every option needs to be explored, I might go so far as to say you might have been sexually molested as a child but have repressed it because of shame, fear and guilt.

Or, perhaps you once lost a child. Did you have an abortion or miscarriage when you were 22 or thereabouts?

Death in a dream represents change. Change is stressful and causes all sorts of grief. Perhaps you are seeking change from within in order to change your life around you. Your emotions about something or for someone are changing and you are feeling guilty as a result. You feel a great loss because of this change but feel powerless to do anything about it.

The dream might be calling you to become more child-like as you have become too much of an adult. Perhaps the fun, innocence and wonder of life has become diminished in the face of being a parent and an adult. Perhaps your responsibilities are too much or you've taken on too much and feel no joy in your life as a result.

By the way, the scar in the area of the naval represents an intrusion into your personal power, as the naval represents the chakra of personal power. Your personal power has in some way been weakened or changed as a result of this intrusion. In fact, it has 'scarred' you. Maybe you have been feeling subservient and not in control of your life's direction, perhaps as a result of becoming an adult or a mother. What doors closed on you, or what dreams did you have to forego as a result of becoming an adult and a mother?

[Jennings]

You are evidentally an excellent mother who loves her daughters dearly and cares about them deeply but it does appear that something might have occurred to at least one of your daughters to cause you to worry deeply about their safety and welfare; what it was, the dream does not reveal but, it was sufficient to cause you grave concern and to trigger this dream. Your dream is not predictive; it simply highlights your profound love and protection for your daughters and the joy they bring into your life. You are blessed with having such a close relationship to your daughters which you and they will cherish for the rest of your lives.

[Wolfjk]

Hi,
I would agree with what Jennings had to say about your dream, however there must have been a reason for!

my heart was racing and i felt like i was going to throw up at any moment. I cant begin to explain the extent of the emotions i was feeling. it has been bothering me all day and i hope that some interpretation will help me to understand what my brain is trying to tell me!!!

The above quote suggests that your dream was probably caused by you feeling: "like i was going to throw up at any moment." You were probably feeling sick in the sleep and that caused this bad nightmare. Although the dream seems very long it might have happened in very quick time so you could wake up before you were actually sick in sleep. Dreams tend to take your mind away from what was actually happening in your sleep.
You can rest assured that your dream was about what was happening in your sleep.
Cheers Wolfjk

[Varzandeh]

Hi,
Dreams of immatured children is about their parents girls is about their mother.
So your daughter is a sample of you.
A lake means someone with a limited science like a lawyer a doctor or a teacher.
being on board a boat means working perhaps for a small organization.
Swimming means working.
A bald man means a rich man,
Naked people means honest people or some people with infamy around that work.
To rape means doing an unwanted favor.
Molar teeth mean parents or grandparents, if had cavity means an illness for them.
If died means a problem of you will be solved, but if drowned in the water


If one dreamt he was drowned in the sea and died means there is a danger by the governor.
If dreamt he was drowned in the water and was up again means he will give up the material affairs and will be busy for the spirituals.
If dreamt his property or his livestock was drowned means he will stuck up in an affair but will rescue at last.
Being drowned may also mean :1- plenty of money 2- a fortune 3- sitting with bad moral people 4- benefit.

[desternies]

Thank you for all of the replies they are helpful.

[Hespeaksindreams]

desternies,
Quite a dream which also saddened my heart as I read it. And if I may I will be commenting on this dream from a biblical perspective. I believe this dream is a cautionary dream from your Creator trying to get your attention about your daughters. There is a verse in the bible that states "train up your child in the way he(or she) should go, and in the end he/she will not depart from it." I believe your Creator, God, is wanting you to know that NOW is the time to start training up your children in the way they should go and not in the way you think they should go. Eventually they will reach a point in their lives where they will part ways with you like on that boat venturing into their own lives (however, still immature and not ready), and it will be like a surpise to you as if time has gone so fast for you, but it will happen before you know it. The youngest child falling overboard represents areas in their lives they are going to be "falling" or have difficult times in, only to find that the life raft they find is not much of a support. In other words they will cling to sources such as relationships, careers, friends, which inside themselves they will find as not much support and still need saving. The second child represents helplessness which I'm sure you felt for her, that they will undergo, lost, without direction, etc. The men in the dream represent spiritual enemies that are at work against your family whose only goal is to bring death (spiritually) to them. I believe all this is shown you to let you know that you need God's help to bring up your daughters in the way they should go. It takes much dependence on Him, trusting, praying over your daughters daily, and not allowing any unclean thing spiritually to influence them. In a way your doing war for them spiritually and God is doing the fighting for you. There is so much to say but I've already unintentionally written a novel here...but I really pray you take this to heart and seek Him for guidance, strength, and wisdom on leading them the right way...God bless!!!

Hespeaksindreams