My Crucifixion

[infrequentdreamer]

*Note* I rarely dream and when I do I almost never remember my dreams.

My dream starts in my church. My dad, who is the pastor in real life, is doing the service. For the service I am going to be crucified. Everyone but me seems to think of it as a normal church skit or something along those lines, but I am actually going to be nailed to a cross. As I walk towards the cross I feel a very intense fear. Normally in my dream I do not feel I am. Then members of the congregation, familiar faces which I cannot recall in may consciousness, put me on the cross. The other members held me to the cross while one member nailed my hands one by one and then my feet. At this point in the dream I have an out-of-body experience. I see myself screaming and writhing in pain. No one helps me. My dad is standing there performing liturgy and doesn't even look up at me. I feel worthless. My out of body experience ends and I see through my eyes now. Strangely I do not feel the pain; maybe you can't feel pain in dreams. I see my left arm start to fall. This happens in a rather unrealistic way. My hand is sliding through the nail, and when it finally falls I look at my hand where there should be a large rip, but there is only the one whole from the nail. My dream fades out and I wake in a position where my left arm, the one that fell, is at my side, and the other is extended out the way it was in my dream, and my feet are crossed over one another the same way they were in my dream.
This all seems very freaky to me because:
a) I've never woken in the same position as one of my dreams
b) I scarcely dream
c) I love my dad and the pattern of his behavior in my dream is illogical

This dream as really scared me and I would appreciate any help or ideas in interpreting it.
Thank You.

[Jennings]

It almost feels as if you are carrying the element of guilt; almost as if you have done something which you are aware that your father would not approve yet you know that it is nothing out of the ordinary. There may exist the element of disappointment of your father but you seem afraid of harbouring this for fear of losing his love.

[niunia]

First, let me ask..what religion are you?

You dreamt about this because you needed help/an answer and a way to deal with your embarassment and guilt. The mistakes you made affect your life situation currently. Life doesn't seem to be going the way you planned. Did you loose your virginity/ have an abortion??

Seems like your father is very condemning, dictative, over-protective, and youre thinking as if you have the worst life- worse then anyone else. Sit down and write down all the bad things VS good things. You will see that the good outweigh the bad. Think about books, movies, etc..the good always overpowers the bad in the end, so remember that.









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