another dream about old girlfriend
It was winter or just in some cold month. The weather was overcast and I was wearing something long sleeved. I was in an old housing project in one of the two story apartments standing in the dining/kitchen area and speaking on my cell phone with her. A black guy was engaging me in some unrelated conversation and there were several people in the room. He said “If you want safety then you have to give up some aspects of freedom”. I replied “I don’t intend to give up any aspects of freedom”.
At this time I was still talking with her on my cell phone. I don’t recall what the conversation was but she had agreed to come over to that house. As I slipped my phone into my pocket she walked through the door. Her hair was very long and more blonde like it used to be in an old picture I have of her from 1975. She was wearing a dark brown sweater. She clearly saw me but did not acknowledge me and walked into the living room area. She sat down on the floor next to a girl in a light brown overstuffed recliner. The room was dark and I could see an older style television. There was a buzz of conversation but no music. There were several other girls(?) sitting around her also. I’m not aware of who they were. Again she saw me but would not acknowledge me. I was devastated and felt my cheeks flush with embarrassment .
I walked over to her and politely apologized for the inconvenience of having to come over, thanked her and left feeling a sense of despair I felt in years past when I could not bring myself to talk to her. As I walked to the street and reached the curb she ran out of the apartment. I could see the brown brick of the older houses in the background. She was very upset. She ran up to me sobbing “I have secrets!” Which I took as the reason she wouldn’t talk to me. I was holding her arms now and replied “Your secrets are yours to keep”.
I woke up at this point and felt the powerful emotions of the dream.
Last edited by rbd : 04-29-2008 at 08:21 AM.
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