Dream Stalker Strikes Again.... and again... and again....

[alwaysdreaming]

So my dream stalker guy, who I refer to as Blue Eyes, has shown up about four times in the last month, two of those times were within the same week. I'm not really sure what to make of it, but the more it happens, the more it makes me think about it, which makes it harder to get out of my mind.

The first one is a little on the intimate side, which is a zone I had never gone to with anyone in real life let alone my dream life. I remember what happened before, and I remember the next morning, but in between that doesn't seem to register to memory. As interesting as it is, I don't really like discussing it.

The second one, dated February 13, from what I wrote down in my journal, played out a little like a video game in its final stages. The world was turning to ice, and to stop it, there was a monster that needed to be defeated. So Blue Eyes did his part and moved where he needed to be so he could initiate the battle. The monster started off as this dragon-like monster, but then when the battle started, it turned into a clone of Blue Eyes (let's call him Evil Blue). Evil Blue would attack and do some damage, but for some reason, Blue Eyes didn't care to fight. He hit Evil Blue like once or twice, which did like zero damage, but then would basically walk around him and wait for him to strike. Meanwhile, I was looking for Blue Eyes somewhere else. My family seemed to be having a family reunion and they were talking about my great-grandfather (one of them who I had never even heard of) in terms of him still being alive and maybe devastated over the loss of his daughter/my grandmother (an extremely unlikely possibility given that my grandmother was 83 when she passed in November, 2006... I remember thinking that in order for that to be possible, he'd have to be like 12 or 13 when she was born). I eventually worked my way through and got to where Blue Eyes and Evil Blue were fighting. The minute I showed up, he seemed to have rejuvinated some sense of will power, but at the same time, he looked like he didn't want me there or anywhere near him. Then someone found a sword (that looked like a hack saw with a thermometer for a blade). I think one of us touched it by accident, and it started glowing blue (it felt a lot warmer than it looked like it should have). Blue Eyes took it and used it to defeat Evil Blue, which turned back into an enormous black dragon before it killed over. He looked at me with this look like he couldn't believe I followed him and that he didn't want me there. So as the world was thawing, I was thinking "Why the hell did I even bother coming?" and started heading back home. He looked like he wanted to follow, but then he turned and walked the other way. Later, I was in this dark dwelling, which was probably my room in the dark... I remember hearing someone asking me "Why did you bother?" The answer was pretty freakin' obvious, but it wanted me to say it. So I replied "Because I care." That's when he came out of the shadows into view. He smiled at me and said he cares too.

[alwaysdreaming]

The third one, dated February 15, played out a little like "The Christmas Carol." Scrooge was in the middle of his rendevouz with the Ghost of Christmas Present. Meanwhile, I was waiting in the dining area of my uncle's house, sitting at the table with my sister and eating M&M's. The M&M's belonged to my sister, and for some reason, she had them separated into three bowls. One had only brown ones. One had only red, green, and blue. The last was completely mixed.

Blue Eyes and his friend were sitting slightly behind me (I can identify the friend as another of my characters, but this is only like the second or third time I've ever seen him in dreams). I think they were talking to each other about something. But then Blue Eyes scooted his chair forward and sat next to me at the table. The rule of the dream seemed to be that he and I were either dating or really interested in each other. But anyway, when he scooted to the table, he asked my sister if he could have some M&M's. My sister stared at him as if she were assessing him and trying to decide. Finally, she slid the bowl of brown ones in front of him (her signal that he could have those). We were all pretty much eating out of that bowl. As I was in mid-chew, he looked at me and smiled, suggesting that he wanted to kiss me (he may have even asked). I asked for a moment, but I couldn't seem to chew the M&Ms fast enough to swallow. After a few more moments than should have been necessary, I turned back to him and moved a little closer. He slid an arm around me, and I shifted a bit to where it was comfortable. He didn't kiss me though. Instead, he started rocking back and forth like he was trying to dance with me while sitting and he started singing to me.

When he started to lean in to kiss me though, he stopped and noticed little symptoms, like I was getting sick. I tried to play off that I wasn't (since I didn't feel anything), and he was almost convinced until he turned and saw that my sister was looking more zoned out than usual. She seemed to have more symptoms than I did, and she was coming down with a fever. The kind of weird thing is he knew who to blame. He asked her about fairies. Apparently, the rule in this was also that fairies, though intriguing, where not nice and up to no good. He asked her if she flicked them away. She said yes, but a little hesitantly. She did flick them away, but not fast enough and that was how she got sick. That's around the time I woke up from this one.

[alwaysdreaming]

The most recent one was yesterday night, dated March 3rd. This one played out a little like a sci-fi movie with video game aspects. I remember being in a dark place, either a castle or lair or cavern or someplace.... There were a lot of things out to get me. At some point, I got fet up and cast a spell called "Altima" (for some reason, there was a lot of emphasis in my head that it was spelled with an 'A', because from any other game, it's "Ultima"). It got rid of everything after me, but it also banished Blue Eyes into the depths of his own mind. So I had to go in to retrieve him. I don't know who sent me there, but I think there was a time limit.

His "mind" where I was sent was another dark place. It was like a massive cave with greenish rocks and walls and stalags, but the ground was completely cracked up and looked almost like a mosiac. There were these creatures wandering about all over the place. They were short, hunched (even hunchbacked), bald, grayish, wrinkled, and grouchy looking. They could have been either hermits or imps or something. They didn't do anything... they just seemed to be there.

Upon looking at this place, I just about lost it and gave up. Like "how the hell am I supposed to find him like this?" I knew I had a time limit, and I knew that was only one section of his mind. It was like an impossible task. So I laid down on the ground and tried to rest a bit while waiting for some kind of idea to come to mind. I remember the ground felt strangely cool and solid against my face. As soon as I laid down though, I heard him ask me (with amusement) what I was doing. I told him, but I couldn't see him... it was more like he was an ominous (omnimous?) presence. He knew where I was and he was looking for me instead.

I woke up before he could find me, but it was still playing out somehow... I asked him about the decor. I found it rather disturbing (it was a little similar to an image I got from my ex-guy I loved). He basically said "Oh. Okay." and immediately, the place changed to an open field with flowers, blue sky, and a rainbow. The way the place looked seemed to be affected by his mood.

[unclesirbobbyrobson]

I often associate caves with the inner workings of the mind... looking for deep and hidden meanings. So strangely enough the later dreammay link to you exploring the meaning deep down of your own dreams about stalkers.

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Many people write dream diaries. But actually it would be better if

they wrote a normal diary. A diary is basically the highlights of the

previous day and the things that are important to you. Dreams are

exactly the same. Once understood they would symbolize those key

moments and turning points in your feelings. So instead of interpreting

the dreams try first to guess what the most likely issues are that you

would dream about. Think of exactly the same things that you would

write in a diary. Once decoded the dreams would symbolize exactly what

you think on the key subjects dominating your mind. Think of quotes

that capture your feelings such as "my father seems very quiet. I think

that something is very wrong. He often starts going quiet when

something happens". You may not be able to understand the exact nature

of the symbols.


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[alwaysdreaming]

That would have made a little more sense except that I didn't actually look for him in the cave, and that the cave was his mind, not mine. Plus he wound up looking for me instead. And he's not so much a stalker nowadays as he is a reoccuring visitor. The only reason I refer to him as a stalker is because a lot of the times that he shows up, my mind doesn't seem to recognize his presence (as in I don't seem to know he's there until he makes himself known, and that's not normal for the way I dream).

The only one of these dreams where he is involved that seems to relate to my current daily life situation and my mental state of being is the first one I choose not to discuss. I understand what that one means. Where the rest are concerned, I understand every part where it concerns me and the actions I take. Where it concerns him is what I don't get. There is nothing that has gone on in the 5 years he has been showing up that he could possibly represent. He always feels like he is not a creation of my mind and like he's invading my personal thoughts (which is starting to happen again with the character that appears as his friend).