I need help

[minkgrl]

I need your help with my recent dreams and need to figure out what they are trying to tell me.

A little history - I have suffered from severe chronic pain from injuries in an auto accident 20 years ago. I have always worked full time against most dr's advice because I felt I had to. I was too ashamed and embarrassed to let anyone down however I am now realizing the one person I have let down the most over the past 20 years is myself. My immune system is weak from having to deal with the chronic pain which leads to my current situation.

I have been very ill for 2 weeks now, finally, they think it is the flu but my bloodwork had come back abnormal and had to be sent out of state for further analysis. I know the chronic pain doesn't help with the healing process. Anyway, I have been having dreams over the past few weeks of my mother, who died 11 years ago. Sometimes the dreams are very normal and she will talk to me, but it seems to be more small talk than anything else. The most important things that I remember is that she does talk to me and is happy. Then there are the dreams where she will not talk to me and is very angry with me. We had a very up and down relationship, but definitely made peace with each other in my 20's and were fairly inseparable when she died. As a matter of fact, all the decisions about letting her go fell to me as I was the one she confided her wishes to the most.

Then there are the cats... I love animals and have done many rescues. 2 cats that havebeen very important to me are Jasmine - my first cat when I was an adult - I had to euthanize her when she was 12. She was ridden with cancer, I worked for a Cat veterinary at the time and was able to put her to sleep myself in the comfort of our home. That was nearly 9 years ago. Then there was Betty Betty. Shewas my black princess. I rescued her from a destructive family and she was my little girl. She would always lay with me when I was not feeling well and would not leave my side. She had such great intuition about me and how I was feeling. Betty was a free spirit, and although all my cats are indoor cats, she could not be kept inside. After years of escapes and frustration and tears I finally reserved myself that it was what she wanted and shewas very happy. She always came home at night, but there were timies when she would wonder for a few days or even a week, but I knew she was with someone else as she always came home well fed, clean and very happy. 2 years ago she disappeared, and although I knew that was how it would happen one day, it was still very hard and I miss her so much. I miss her soul, she was so much a part of me.

These precious girls are coming to me in my dreams now. It will be a non-eventful dream and there will be Jasmine rubbing on my leg, purring, wanting to be petted. Then another moment I will look out a window and there will be Betty - I will open the window and shewill come in. Healthy and Happy and wanting to be near me. Sometimes they are in thesame dream, and other times in separate dreams, but they are always "with" me, by my side, showing me love and affection. I feel it from them. It is like they are not here for me to love them and pet them, but that they are here to give me their love, protection and affection.

Can anyone help me decipher these dreams? I will be in the Dr's office and one of my mother's favorite songs will come on the radio. This is an artist that you don't hear anymore - Mac Davis. So it is not like he is a common sound on the radio these days. Little things like that are happening all around me. I am constantly in tears over this and very confused. Arethey trying to protect me? Let me know something is wrong?

Please, please please, if you can help shed some light on this at all..... I am getting desparate to try to understand this. I have even searched for a spiritual medium in my area, with no luck. Anything you can share will be so greatly appreciated.

minkgrl

[Wolfjk]

Hi,
I'm sorry to hear about your cronic pains. In times of trouble your own subconscious mind tries to help you by creating these comforting dreams. In normal circumstances, you would not remember these dreams but when you have other problems like a bad cold or flew the dreams become more vivid. If you are taking any pain killers or some cough medicines, these make you remember your dreams more. If you take any madicines that have strong odours that makes the dreams even more vivid.
Your dreams try to help you and comfort you att all times. Even the very bad dreams do good things in sleep.
I hope your condition improves.
Cheers Wolfjk

[Jennings]

There is the strong sense of loneliness coming across from your posting combined with the pangs of grief but not just grief at the loss of your mother and cats but of the loss of self in every day life; you may also be anticipating your own demise. The various coincidences that come into your life are not connected to anything spiritual but simply to your acute sensitivity that has arisen owing to your emotional condition; it is, in a small way, like when you buy a particular model of car then you begin to notice other similar models and this is why you are more aware of songs that trigger fond or sad memories and etcetera.

I will send a personal message to help aid your recovery.

[minkgrl]

I believe what you wrote is true about my seeing the demise of myself I would love any suggestions , ideas you could offer.

Again, thank you so very much for your reply

Originally Posted by Jennings

There is the strong sense of loneliness coming across from your posting combined with the pangs of grief but not just grief at the loss of your mother and cats but of the loss of self in every day life; you may also be anticipating your own demise. The various coincidences that come into your life are not connected to anything spiritual but simply to your acute sensitivity that has arisen owing to your emotional condition; it is, in a small way, like when you buy a particular model of car then you begin to notice other similar models and this is why you are more aware of songs that trigger fond or sad memories and etcetera.

I will send a personal message to help aid your recovery.

[gulldom]

Dreams about your mother are sometimes good and sometimes bad depending on your state of mind. Bad comes when your lifestyle and things you do confronting her view of life. If you are peaceful what she thought you and made influences on you. If you are dreaming of her often means that she was very important role in your life and her image is not fading.
That aspect of life is like museum of wax figures, if you don't maintain it the faces will fade and that looks like you are still thinking a lot about your mother.

[unclesirbobbyrobson]

Well I am no expert in spirit mediums. I would not say that life exists after death as I have no direct knowledge either way. I am sure that if animals andn people can talk to their loved ones after death then they would.

Yet many many dreams link to the way we feel. For years these animals become part of your life. You know how your mom felt and how she would think and feel. Its the same with the cats. You feel their presence. You maybe miss them so your mind creates them.

Personally I fiund these types of dreams difficults as I am at least part sceptic. I cannot tell you either way really.

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Often one symbol in a dream will seemingly have no relationship to any other. Totally bizarre things happen and there seems to be no sense to the dreams meaning. Thats because some symbols have a very cryptic meaning. A parachute may simply express the need to escape from a very difficult relationship. The need to land safely is a direct comparison to the need to land safely in an emotional sense. Yet within the context of the dream it makes no sense. It seems confusing and funny when we describe a moment when our granny gets hit by a parachutist. But dreams are like that. One portion of the dream makes no real sense within the story of the dream. Yet its meaning is there. The trick is to weave together various symbols. So see how that parachutist links within your own real life thoughts. So if you woke up that morning and felt "Yesterday I started to realise that I need to get out of my relationship with my boyfriend. He is being totally abusive. Right now I just need to escape with as little fuss as possible". Its likely that this dream about a parachutist is directly linked to those real life thoughts. Then start to piece together a wider meaning to the dream. Look at the possible symbolic meanings to the other symbols and try to see what the dream is saying overall.

These pages are especially helpful in showing you how to interpret dreams

Dream symbolism and dream dictionary interpretation - How to interpret dreams Interpreting dreams
Dream symbolism - How to use dream symbols Triggers for dreams
Dream dictionary - A modern and well researched dream dictionary showing how symbols can be interpreted in practical analysis Dream dictionary

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[highcommandersocrates]

i don't know how old you are or why your blood test indicated uncertainty but i DO NOT think this indicates your demise. i AM sure that any positive thinker would be confused by the morbid tone of your desrciption and therefor only understand your dream and situation in the context of death. as i'm sure you know death is not the worst that can happen. until you get conclusive medical evidence do not convince yourself you must be nearing the end. it's probably just wishful thinking. also i don't think your current emotional situation brought about your sensitivity. from what you say about taking care of others and not yourself it sounds like you've always been that sensitive and your emotional condition (as well as perhaps some of your physical one) is a result of that sensitivity, not the other way around. your cats are probably your brain trying to comfort you. also they may be fulfilling a wish to be taken care of in times of need the way you did for others. perhaps the people in your life are not returning the favor and therefor your pets come back to give their gratitude in your dreams. your mother, whether it really is her or your own symbol for personal maturity, is probably trying to comfort you whilst telling you rather firmly that depression and martyrdom is just going to make you worse. you say you don't like docters. i agree with and understand this but have you tried asking for help? i don't know if your need to sacrifice for others comes from a sense of guilt or a compulsion to create order from chaos, i know for myself it's both. but you can only help others so much when you yourself are weakened. unless everyone you know is a complete ******* i'm sure they would be concerned for you. you are probably valued more than you know. stop relying on dead people and losts pets for help. ask someone who is alive and maybe these dreams won't vex you any more.

[dreamworld]

perhaps your dreams are comforting you - let them......enjoy the affection and security you are feeling in your dreams - a healthy mind promotes a healthy body...maybe the dreams are a response from your illness in order to help you get better?