a dream of a former love

[nefessa]

justin is my former lover about eh, about 2 months+ ago. he was my first "true love". i have never had a dream of him. this dream happened last night.

I dreamed of he and i sitting sort of in the woods, i think we were sitting on a fallen tree or something, i was sitting next to him. We were looking out onto a snow-covered open field, tall grass on the other side. what was really weird was the green leaves on the tree and the grass was still green but the field was completely covered in snow, but as for the place we were sitting in, around the log and stuff, it was just dead leaves all over the ground..
he kept telling me he loved me, kissing me, had his hand around my waist and i was all snuggled up to him. i kept looking into his eyes.. it was just.. perfect. i guess we were dating in the dream, i don't know..
the next thing i remember was being in a blue or black truck, a 4 door, he and i were in the back seat, michael was driving,and it was michael and megan in the front seat. [they used to date back when justin and i were together.] they were holding hands, the music was up, we were all singing, laughing, having a good time. justin and i were cuddled together in the backseat. [this is all just like old times, we used to do this]
we got to a hotel, a hotel justin goes to often to hang out now and he and i walked in together, holding hands, we walked up the stairs, got halfway up and i let go of his hand, turned back down the steps for something and turned back around, went back up, and he was standing there, smiling at me, his hand outstretched for me.. waiting for me. i took his hand and we walked up the stairs. at the top of the stairs we let go of eachothers' hands, and i was standing there, he gave me a big hug, kissed my cheek and walked towards the door to a room or apartment. we went in and in there were like two couches really close to eachother and one on the other side of the room and about 6 or 7 people were on the couches that were close together, smoking weed. [i have no idea why this would show up in my dream] he took my hand and led me to the couch on the other side of the room, and put his arms around me, made me feel safe and comfortable, kept kissing me, looking into my eyes and i guess.. showing he cared. kept talking to me and making me feel warm and happy.

then my alarm went off, and woke me up. it was just a dream.. i've never had a dream that felt this real.