I think I am losing my mind! Enough to bring me to tears! AM I CRAZY?! I am in love with my fiancé but I am in love with someone else to! I don’t even know his name. I am having these dreams about him. In my dreams he has one mother and a sister my age. We are at a game and he is playing basketball and after the game he is going with his friends out. Know he is my soulmate in my dream and I plead with him not to go because I know he is going to get killed at the game by some gunman who he is arguing with for disrespecting me! I tell him please don’t go and its like me, his mother and his sister know he is going to die at the club and we can not tell him because somehow it is going against …I don’t know but its forbidden that we tell him he is going to die but I don’t want to be without him and I am crying and pleading with him not to go to the club because I know that he is my soulmate and if he dies I will be alone for the rest of my natural life. Finally after tears and cried and pleading he does NOT go and he lives and I am happy and I keep telling myself this is not a dream. I am so happy because he is alive and he is with me and it is not a dream. Earlier I was upset because I kept telling myself this is a dream but then after I talked him into not going to the club or the game or wherever he was supposed to be killed at I keep laughing because I am so happy I am with him and I am saying I am not dreaming he is here and everything is fine. We are so happy together and then I woke up and I feel a sadness unlike anything I have ever felt before and I cry because “HE” whoever he is, is not there and I want him back! What is wrong with me? Who is this man I love so much that I cry when I wake up because he is not there? He loved me so much and I felt a love like I have never felt before I mean like 1000 times stronger than I have felt for any man in my life like it was stronger than I think its possible for someone to love on this earth and so strong that I cried when I woke up because he is not there! What is wrong with me? How can I be in love with a person that does not exist?
