Cheating on my Boyfriend and scrabbling for pins

[westminster_kitten]

It started near the end of my 18th birthday party, with everyone there, one of my best boy mates,Aaron, was playing dead (he was wearing tweed and looked like a proper English man) which for some reason made me laugh so I kept staring at him and giggling and then turned round and went off to dance.
{The hall we were in was really grand, with wood panelled wall and wheat coloured walls above the wood panelling white one BIG arched wooden door at one end of the room and two big patio windows at the other end , fully dressed with netting and curtains, and a normal rectangular door to my left}
While we were all dancing, I ended up slow dancing with him, while I was stuck in a huge crowd with my only escape to the north west of me right in the eyeline of my boyfriend, who was leaning against a MASSIVE piano, drinking and talking to one of my less well known friends.
I thought little of it and looked back to Aaron when suddenly without warning ended up kissing him properly on the lips and suddenly thought, in my dream, "OH ****! No He (meaning my boyfriend) just saw me kiss another guy!”
I walked over to him to try and explain but he looked at me coldly and grabbed my friend who he had been talking to and kissed her passionately I.e. by dipping her as you would in a tango.
I marched out of the room, passed the landing of the hostel in Minehead (where we have stayed in the past), and ended up in a small landing with the walls covered in dark wood and a green threadbare carpet suddenly my boyfriend appeared behind me causing me to drop to my knees and scrabble on the floor for a gold pin/badge, which grew up,along side hudrends of others, through the floor like Cress, in front of a closed dark wooden door.
I managed to find one with a shield showing a sun and a cross on it so I picked it up and showed him but he just refused to accept it and pushed me to the floor, knelt on my legs and tied me to the door.

So I'm a little bit confsed ....