Recurring nightmarish dream

[Andre33]

(This is a rough dream read on with caution...sorry)

This happened last night, which I know was full moon. I couldn't sleep until and it was 3am, I took 3 valarian tablets (natural sleep remedy-doesn't make you sleep just relaxes you)

So anyway, I was laying on my right side and I felt like there was some kind of energy messing with the center of my back..there was a closed door facing it. As I fell asleep I began having this very movie like dream begin. It was dark out, right next too a large body of water. I was walking down this rocked-in path, with high walls and it dead ended. Through a wrought iron fence I could see a thick moist iron door that a lower path lead too.
I made it to the door (which I recognized as having done before). VERY bad vibes, it slowly opens and it looks like some kind of underground torture prison. Though the first room is empty of any cells, more like a food preparation area. All very dark and generally evil looking. The next room I come into is a kitchen and was room...this is where things get bad.
There are older men raping some young women...I will spare you the details, but one of the women thanks the man afterwards despite her obvious pain and injuries. There is a group of young women...almost like they are on tour of this place. They are near wooden cutting boards and are pointing out how the thick wooden walls have blood stains and knife carvings in them, they are women of color and there general reply is 'what the hell?!' I am thinking the same thing.
There is a room that I can't remember, but it was bad I know that. Then the final room before I woke up. This one isn't so bad it is just spooky. I walk into to this rounded living room sort of space, there is a woman calling me into an attached bathroom ahead. As I approach I begin walking up three stairs (adobe like construction throughout) There are these wavy almost underwater like curtains above me, a womans hand reached out and grabbed mine as I pass underneath. I entered the rounded adobe style bathroom and there was a epherial woman and all the water in the bathtub was on the ceiling just staying there.
Woke up at that point around 5 and couldn't get back to sleep. I recognized the first entrance and room and the bathroom scene as having happened before.

Just alittle background on recent events in my life:
Was living with my finance up north, she decided she didn't love me anymore and I found her in a tent with another man. Needless to say I was upset and I left her there and moved out and back down south. Obviously I am heart broken by this, as I loved her with every fiber of my being and I still care for her deeply. I cherish what we did have, though I don't agree with her actions, I still wish her the very best. I was in the role of taking care of her as she was bipolar and mostly depressed while we were together, she resented that fact because she didn't like being powerless in her own life (though she was at that time) She was an aeries and I am an aquarius if that helps.


Any help with this would be greatly appreciated, this is the first time I have noted this dream as being recurring and I haven't had it for many, many years.
Thanks
Andre'

[Andre33]

Does anyone have any input?

[Wolfjk]

Hi Andre,
Thanks for giving the background to your dream.
Breaking up is never easy. You were probably brooding on your misfortune with this girl before you went to sleep. The three valerian tablets probably helped you to drop off to sleep, however they also made the dreams more vivid. in times of psychological upheaval the subconscious mind tries to create dreams that divert you from present troubles and try to give you enough sleep to get by. The content of the dreams by nature have to be strong and involved to change your chain of morbid thoughts about the break-up. D
Dreams try to help you in times of trouble, however the sleep remedy is a bit of a draw-back as it makes the involved dream more vivid and more frightening.
I gather you are still young and things past remedy should be past care. You have done your best for your bi-polar girl, now let her go her own way.
Cheers Wolfjk

[Andre33]

Thanks for your input, you're right I was having a major mulling over kind of day and night. Hard to leave your best friend, but it has to be done. Hope that was the last of that dream, moved my bed and slept well last night.
Thanks
Andre'