Ex's palate DISFIGURED?

[hazelflame]

Okay, I know everyone here tends to IGNORE these type of dreams.....But there HAS to be a reason Why Im dreaming this! I wish I could just Forget my Ex.

This dream is really bothering me...and I dont know why I
would even dream this when my mind isnt even thinking about this since Im in the middle of stressing over Final Exams.
Anywayz, I believe Im in a room at someones house (an Ex from 10yrs ago. But it feels like someone is leading me their to find ANSWERS?

Then I find a few letters scattered around the room. Once I go through some I find out that their written by me years way back.
After looking at it on the bed, I decided that those letters were meaning less or pointless, so I rip it down the Center. I figured he didnt care anyways when I wrote those after we broke up years ago.
Then, out of now where there is a lady or someone with me in the room. She begins to explain why he wasnt there for me when I wanted him back after we broke it off.

She said he had Explosives set off in his mouth...and it DISFIGURED his cleft palate. That he didnt really look normal & the Doctors could not perform SURGERY to FIX it!!
He was Traumatized by it--and just totally forgot about me, & was too embarrassed to go out in public.

I havent had any Association with this Ex in 10yrs....but he was my 1st love. and I realllly hate it. Im a very busy person with school, my children, and husband. I dont even have much time for myself.

Can someone please give me piece of mind WHY Im dreaming something where I cant let go?
I really dont want to think about him or dream about him.
Technically he WASNT even in the Dream!

But its like "Something" dosent want me to let GO!?"

[Dreamy_Jack]

The palate being disfigured seemed to echo the image of you ripping the love note (that you wrote in the past) in half.

I think 1st loves have incredible staying power in our subconscious. I also dream of my 1st love from 30+ years ago -- at least weekly! I think it has to do with coming to terms with what our childlike idea of idealized love has become...more mature love with responsibilities, children to care for, minor annoyances that add up.

It's wonderful in its own way but it's not what we thought it would be when we were younger. The loss of idealism or the perfect image of love. Your 1st love is stepping into your dream as a shorthand for the idealized love.